Going feral at fifty! How to reclaim the sensual self and love life

In this episode, we delve into topics revolving around midlife transitions, self-discovery, sensuality, and sexuality. Bree Luck speaks with expert guest Chloe DeSousa, a sex, intimacy, and relationship coach with a focus on somatic approaches to eng...
In this episode, we delve into topics revolving around midlife transitions, self-discovery, sensuality, and sexuality. Bree Luck speaks with expert guest Chloe DeSousa, a sex, intimacy, and relationship coach with a focus on somatic approaches to engaging with oneself and others. Together, they navigate interesting aspects of body image, aging, trauma, and relationships. DeSousa explains her appreciation for Tantra's philosophy of connecting the body and spirit and shares tips on shedding shame around sensuality. Through personal stories, insights, and expert advice, this episode affirms the importance of taking time to foster one's individual relationship to sexuality and sensuality, in the pursuit of an enriched and empowered life journey.
00:00 Introduction and Welcoming the Guest
06:46 Exploring the Journey of Self-Discovery and Aging
15:27 Understanding Trauma and Its Impact on Connection
27:53 Embracing Aging and Sexuality
28:40 Influences and Heroes in the Field of Embodiment
31:49 Exploring Self-Love and Sensuality
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About Chloe De Sousa:
Chloe De Sousa is not your average love, sex, and relationship coach; she's a luminary with over two decades of experience guiding individuals through intimacy and self-discovery. As a seasoned 5 rhythms dance teacher and a dance movement psychotherapist, she's not just about theory; she's all about embodiment and transformation.
With a passion for unlocking the boundless potential within each person, Chloe empowers her clients to embrace their ecstatic sexuality and step into their own unique leadership journey. Her approach is rooted in trauma-informed practices, blending the latest findings in modern science with the timeless wisdom of ancient tantra.
Known as a "legend of space holding" and hailed as the "queen" of 5 rhythms dance facilitation, Chloe's reputation precedes her. Her influence extends globally, offering 1-1 coaching, transformative courses, and captivating talks that bridge the gap between ancient wisdom and modern understanding.
Beyond her spoken words, Chloe is also a published author, sharing her profound insights with the world. In her eyes, pleasure is not a privilege but a birthright for everyone.
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00:00 - Going feral at fifty! How to reclaim the sensual self and love life
00:21 - Introduction and Welcoming the Guest
07:04 - Exploring the Journey of Self-Discovery and Aging
15:42 - Understanding Trauma and Its Impact on Connection
28:04 - Embracing Aging and Sexuality
28:51 - Influences and Heroes in the Field of Embodiment
32:01 - Exploring Self-Love and Sensuality
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The gift of the perimenopause is that you start to say no. And even
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though people don't want to hear it, I say it's really good for your
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environment. All these people need to hear that there actually is
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some limitation to your time. There's a value on what you do, and you're
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going to choose who to spend what portions of your day with.
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Welcome to pause to go, the podcast that's all up
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making the most of life's transitions from middle school through
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menopause. I'm your host, Brie luck,
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joining you as we embark on a journey of self discovery and
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questionable decisions. Get ready for heartfelt
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conversations, expert insights, and personal stories
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that'll have you laughing, crying, and saying, thank
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goodness I'm not alone. If you've lost your
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midlife crisis survival kit, we've got you
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covered. So join me, won't you? And together
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we can pause to go
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welcome back to the pause to go podcast. I
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am delighted today to introduce you to my
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new friend, Chloe D'Sousa. She is
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a sex, intimacy and relationship coach who
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specializes in somatic
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approaches to really engaging with yourself
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and with others. She is
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wonderful. I know you're going to love her personal stories
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and also just her general approach to
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how we can move through trauma, how we can shape
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new narratives around aging and relationships
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by engaging with our bodies. The name of
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Chloe's company is feral grace, and I just
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love that because it really
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feels like feral grace being really in your body, feeling
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it completely. And also the beauty
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of that, the elegance of
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that. I'm excited for you to hear
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that in Chloe, to see it if you're watching,
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and to take that with you and hold on to
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it as you move along in your aging
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journey, if you want to take it even
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deeper, if you want to get even more intimate. And that's what we're
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really about here. At pause to go is getting into
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those intimate, real, deeply human
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conversations. Chloe has agreed to do a
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live q a with me in the week that follows
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the release of this episode. We will share the
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exact date on Instagram and Facebook, and I'll
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add it to the show notes as soon as we have it as well. So
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you can look for the date there. And what we are going to do is
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take your anonymous questions.
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So if you have a question after listening to this episode,
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if it has inspired something in you, a question that you
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have about your own sense of aging,
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or how to engage with your body, or
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how pleasure is your birthright and how you
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can access it, send us a question.
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Send us your thoughts. We want to talk about
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it. I want to remind you both in. This
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episode and in the live Q A that a podcast
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episode and a public Q A are
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no replacement for medical care or
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psychological care. We are not offering medical care or psychological
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care in here. We encourage you to
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seek professional help when and if
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you need it. And I know I go to therapy. I know
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Chloe does her own work. We encourage you to take care of
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yourselves in that way. But here we are
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creating a forum for having those discussions.
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So how to leave us your questions? You
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can leave us a voicemail on the postigo podcast
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web page. It used to ask for an email, but
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I believe I've got the settings now where it doesn't
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ask for an email anymore. So you can truly be
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anonymous. Another way to leave us anonymous message
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is by joining the postigo
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podcast Facebook group. That's
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not anonymous, right? The Facebook group is not anonymous, but within the
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group you can leave an anonymous message. You
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can leave an anonymous post. So go there, leave us
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a post, let us know what your question is, and we'd
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love to address it on the live Q A.
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But first, enjoy this episode with
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Chloe of feral Grace.
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Chloe, I'm so happy to
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have you here. I had such a great time just
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planning this conversation with you. I've been looking forward to it all
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week. I'm so happy to be here. Equally. I kept looking in my diary and
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occasionally awkward Sage would catch my eye and I get this little heart
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flutter. It's always a good sign. It is. They
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say that if you have something to plan,
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a way to sort of check and see if it's the
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right thing for you, is to imagine that you have to do it tomorrow.
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So if you're committing to something, you think, how would I feel if I
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were doing this thing tomorrow? And if your first
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thought is, I try to find a way to get out of it, you
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don't do it. I love that. And if your thought is, oh,
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I'm excited about that, then you know that it's in
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alignment and that you're ready for that. So I
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was ready to meet with you. That takes us really lovely
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into letting the body lead. Like, my background is an
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ecstatic dancer and dance movement psychotherapist. And what
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we really want is the heart and the body and the mind to be in
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one place in alignment. So kind of what you're describing is
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this, like, all of you wants to be there because sometimes our
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mind somewhere, or our heart somewhere else, our bodies are tired and
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that little alignment, like, oh, yeah, all of me wants to be there.
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It's a good sign. Today we're going to talk about how
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to get in that alignment, how to find that
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alignment. Yes. And maybe also to recognize how we're out
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of alignment so that we can reach alignment. Yeah.
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And I think that's the thing. Like, these days, with the amount of study
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that I've done and the personal processes on myself, when I find
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the out of alignment place now I know there's gold
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there. Now I almost want to go there because it's like, oh,
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great, I found another piece of myself that takes me
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into a more expanded version of myself or a little bit more
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internal freedom, and that's now a go to place.
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Beautiful. So I'd love to begin with
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a question that I ask every guest who comes on to
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pause to go, which is, how old are you
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and where are you in your midlife journey?
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Oh, fantastic. So I turned 50
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last month, which was fantastic.
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And it was funny, the journey around it. So
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somebody asked me on a car journey, I think, like, oh, how do you feel
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about turning 50? And I think I feel genuinely
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excited. So, first of all, the cultural conditioning of what
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it meant to be 50 came up for me, like, on the way there this
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year. And then it was like, I see so many women
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redefining what 50 means. Like, literally,
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there's people breaking limits in the Olympics and
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they're going out and learning all these things. So this year I learned to
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ski and I learned to surf. And so this is how
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I mean, to carry on. That's amazing.
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And how has that been for you, physically,
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to learn to ski and learn to surf at age
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50? Yeah. So I think the skiing was
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probably the hardest one as a dancer, I have good
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balance. I have good body coordination. What I do notice, because
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I'm also a runner, is that I get injuries more
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often. But with that comes also more deeper
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body listening. So I got off lucky. But I think what
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also occurred through learning something new was a
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choose a really skilled practitioner to teach you whatever it is you're learning.
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Because I'm fussier these days about everything, in
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fact. And secondly, it brought me back into what
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I'm asking other people to do. I've spent over 20
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years studying embodiment and body movement, body
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processes, emotions in the body, and I'll be inviting
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my clients to, oh, we're just going to drop into the body now. I do
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that in a very trauma informed way, but somebody saying, well,
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we're just going to ski down the ski slope. And I was like, that's really
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scary, right? So I was reminded, like, oh, when this
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isn't your home place, you're asking somebody to do. And I
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thought, that's a very sweet reminder of the beginner's mind. I
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love that. Where are you in terms of perimenopause and
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menopause? Oh, we're going there. So I am
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getting to the point where certainly I noticed a few years ago
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that I needed to start to study the perimenopause. So I
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noticed, first of all, my energy levels dipped. And
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then it was like, the very solid ground inside
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of myself that I was used to standing on started to shake.
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And with that shaking, I decided to self educate a bit, because
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it was like I was trying to point out to my family at the time,
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I'm managing this really well. Like, if you knew what was happening inside of
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me, like, my delivery to you guys, it's pretty
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hot. But it was like everything I was standing on was shaking. And I
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started to realize the opportunity to let the shake
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shed the things I didn't want, whether that was ideologies, the
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way I self cared, the way I was choosing to live my
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relationships. There's the handy oestrogen drop that stops
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you over caring for your environment, and it starts to be my turn.
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So my business actually flourished even more because I was
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like, I'm really excited about this. I'm going to take some time out this
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afternoon while you have the really.
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I would say I'm perimenopausal, but I'm cusping now. And I think
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I really wanted to mention the red school, Alexandra
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Pope's work. So there's wise power, which
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really brings in the physical and the spiritual journey that we go on.
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So wise power is this perimenopause and menopausal
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process is when we really step into our authority,
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our identity really hones itself down. So if you imagine
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that each cycle, when you get the critic just before your period,
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that's a preparation ground throughout the whole of your life for the actual
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whole menopause, wherein this perimenopause, which is the
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quickening, faces you with the biggest critic. What do I want to
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let go of in this perimenopause phase? And it starts to
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quicken, like the desperation, but there's an
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urgency to it. So in terms of
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late in 45, there were some things that I thought,
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oh, I'm never going to have that happen. My
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bucket list, what's on it? And then the
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perimenopause came in, it was like, I'm going to make that happen.
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And then you started skiing, and then you started.
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You got me. Yeah, exactly. And
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there's lots of personal crisis. So I do find the client group
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often coming towards me. I'll work with people of all ages, but often
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you've got women saying, how do I not chuck the baby out with the
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bathwater? I want to walk away from? My whole life is a part of that
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perimenopausal process. And alongside that, what was
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happening to me in my perimenopause, because I've always been very
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connected sexually my whole life, I've had damage in other
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areas, but that remained intact, that my sexual energy was
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really rising. Now, physiologically, I could probably get
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told by somebody, that's because it's like, last chance to get a baby in
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before the whole thing changes. But also it was
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an ownership of the fact that I'm very connected sexually, and therefore,
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what am I going to do with it? How am I going to take responsibility
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for educating myself with what I want to do with it and offering space
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to people who might not be as lucky as me? We all know there's
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an orgasm gap, and I'm here maybe to close that.
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I'm here to educate women around body ownership,
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consent, the fact that we all have a capacity to be
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multiorgasmic, to experience a wide range of
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sexual repertoire. And it started to become clear to
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me that I needed to step into a leadership role
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around that. Hence feral grace being born, really.
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And alongside of that, I had a lot of learning to do in other areas
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in my life. But really, the sexual energy rising was a big
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part of the perimenopause for me. That was a gift amongst all the other shake
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up that happens. I love that you've mentioned a few things
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that are recurring themes in my community.
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Number one is getting quite fussy. Getting a little fussy.
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You were speaking specifically about from whom you would seek
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instruction. But also it sounded like
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maybe that's just in general, too, that there's a little more of, like,
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I want this to be right. Am I reading that correctly? Yes,
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you are. Absolutely. Yeah. And then that,
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coupled with moving into think
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it's a biological movement, this is my feeling about this.
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I'm just being really clear about that. But there's a
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movement that's not always reflected in the culture, which I think
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is how we have some of the cognitive dissonance that we have in this
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age, because biologically we are moving towards a place
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of. It's time to receive. I've given and given. I've
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given my body, I've given over to other people, and it's time to
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receive. And the culture is. Wait, what?
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Wait, what? You want something now? What? But you're
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just a woman. Yeah, very much so.
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Nagowski's just written a brilliant workbook called
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Burnout, and I think it's page ten in there, but I could look it up
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for you if you want. And she talks about the role of women giving,
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but also why that causes burnout among women. I was reading
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statistics this morning, actually, on the autoimmune
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diseases that women suffer as well. And it's this over giving, and
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the over giving is acceptable in our society. And the
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very gift, and I really coach people around this, the gift of the perimenopause,
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is that you start to say no. And even though people don't want to hear
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it, I say it's really good for your environment.
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All these people need to hear that there actually is some limitation
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to your time. There's a value on what you do, and you're going to choose
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who to spend, what portions of your day with. And often
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that's with yourself. Like, I choose to spend much more time with
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myself. Yes. I think of myself as an
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ambivert. I probably truly am more extroverted,
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but it just happens that the person I want to spend the most time with
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is myself. I'm an extrovert who wants to spend more time with myself.
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Yes. Ready? Relate. Really relate. You
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mentioned damage, and that makes me think about
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what I've seen that you write and speak about, which is the impact
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of trauma on our ability to
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connect in a multitude of ways. Can
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you talk a little more about what you mean
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by trauma and connection
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and your feelings about that? Yeah, absolutely. I
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think we are so sensitive as human beings, first of
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all, and this is a gift as well as a slight curse. So I've
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worked very early on in my career in adult psychiatry, so I've seen
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very much where people are very, very damaged. With
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the majority of people, we're carrying childhood experiences,
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and they flavor the way we relate in our adult
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life. So a classic example of this would be your attachment
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patterns, whether you're secure, anxious or avoidant,
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attached. And let's be clear, most people are a mix of all three, but you're
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likely to be majority one. And good news,
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you can change your attachment patterns. You can change it
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because maybe you're with someone who helps you get into a more
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secure place. But also the work that I do specifically and
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many others out there, please choose. A good practitioner is to
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start to integrate some of the trauma that's stored in your nervous system
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so that you start to behave differently in your relationships
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and in your environment. So one of the lenses I'm very much
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in favor of I work with changing your inner
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ecology and that will change your outer ecology.
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And one of the things that motivated me was also
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the statistics around women's
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experiences sexually. So in terms of body
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ownership, there's the reintegration of traumatic
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relationships or traumatic, to whatever degree, sexual
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experiences, so that you start to have ownership again.
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So I'm a PTSD survivor, so I've mapped my way out
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of the black holes that you can fall down as a PTSD
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experiencer. And so once you've reintegrated a
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fair bit of trauma, what you want is to I really in favor of people
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owning back themselves so they can have that freedom back to have a
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relationship without expecting
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a certain level of whatever came their way in their
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previous relationships, taking a stand for boundaries, enjoying your body
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again because it's yours no matter what happened to you. And
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that also can be quite a lot of fun once you've got in there.
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It's not the same as psychotherapy, which it's a bit faster than
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that actually, most of the time. Why is it faster? I'm
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curious about that. I'm going to go geeky on you then. I love
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it. There's a plastics to the brain, so the neural
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pathways that are set are changeable. And not only that, you can grow more
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neural pathways. So let's imagine that
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you're very used to being in a relationship where you feel overwhelmed because
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of your avoidant attachment. And once you realize that, oh,
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in my childhood I felt really overwhelmed, there was always somebody coming at me,
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but it's not happening now. You start to grow an awareness and
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create a new neural Pathway that says, I'm safe in this
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relationship, I can ask for what I need. I'm allowed to take
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space and then the thoughts and the feelings to go down that neural
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pathway instead of the same one as your childhood, and it's the same
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with psychotherapy, is a really, really important place. I'm
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a dance movement psychotherapist also. So you want to work out and
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track what your story is, but hopefully you want to get to a
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place where you start to write your own narrative that's really
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exciting because you get to be the heroine. So yes, all of
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these things happen to me, but if you stay on that neural pathway
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compounding your story, talking about it forever. You never get to write
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yourself the ending that you would like. I was maybe the
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victim of all these circumstances, and then I pulled through, and then I did
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some healing on myself, and then I started to attract the person of
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my dreams, and I now am this happy person with
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X-Y-Z with what I actually desired. So
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in dropping into the nervous system and reintegrating some of the
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experiences there, you free yourself up
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and you get to be your own heroine. I'm
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also thinking about what you said earlier in the conversation,
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which was that when you hit up against something
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that feels uncomfortable because we don't always just have a happy ending. Right.
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We hit points of discomfort that you now look at them
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as opportunities that it's like, oh, here's a part to dig
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into and to heal a little more, explore a little more, to find out
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more about myself. And that seems like an
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even better happy ending because it's an
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expansive one. It's one that continues to
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unfold from a place of empowerment. It's
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not an ending so much as an
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unfolding. Yeah. No, absolutely. So, for
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example, if you have an area that seems very scary to you,
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sometimes moving towards it is a good thing, sometimes moving away.
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So when I first started my business, I
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thought that somehow it was going to take me really far away from my
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kids. Now, of course, then I'm not going to be invested in my
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business, because actually, my children come first. But actually, that's not my story.
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That was something that was more in my childhood than now.
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So when I used to feel that reaction of, like, the world's
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going to end if I expand into this part or I do this next,
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or if I make a decision for myself, there's going to be a loss.
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And then I started to notice when I dared to take that step with
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the help of some good friends, that actually the world
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didn't end in my little corner of the universe, that actually the kids were fine
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and so was I, I just took a break. So there's these little
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moments now where I challenge myself. And it can be also an
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overreaction. If you've got in the
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tantra pantheon, there's no good or bad feeling. So
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it's like, oh, my gosh, I'm feeling really overly jealous or
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overly angry, overly sad. You know, there's probably a bit of
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trauma, reintegration, or nervous system integration to
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go on. What's the story? I'm telling myself, why is this
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part being really overprotective when actually what's really going
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on is my friend talked to another friend, or
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there was a small loss, but it's reminding me of a bigger loss. And I
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need to just uncouple those events so that I can be more in the now.
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So there's a self support of my own happiness going on as that
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unfolding takes place. Did that make sense? So
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much sense. You mentioned Tantra,
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and I know that that's a part
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of your work, but in my experience,
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living in a very puritanical America,
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tantra just sort of elicits titters. People giggle
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when Tantra comes up. And so I think
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we don't really know what it is. Can you explain what
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tantra is and what tantric
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means? What it is? What is it? First of all, I
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want to talk about the fact that as a five rhythms facilitator,
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teacher, there was a lot of dancers at times that would be into
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tantra. And personally, I found the tantra
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communities near me to be the kind of people that wanted to
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hug me for too long and
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eye gaze and all this stuff. And I was like, man, I just need
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my boundaries. Like, will you just stop doing that uncomfortable stuff to me?
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And I still hold that view. I have to say,
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I'm like the reformed, what is the ex smoker or whatever. I'm like,
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oh my God, too much. So maybe when I'm talking about
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tantra, I'm talking a much more like spiritual philosophy
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of not dividing body from
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spirit. So allowing the body to have spiritual
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experiences or allowing yourself to include your body in
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your spiritual experiences. So I don't want to leave my body.
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I would like to be here. It feels like a gift. Instead of trying to
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go out of my body to maybe spirit. And I'm really
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accepting of all religions and people's choices around them. But instead of trying to
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leave my body, I want to go down and in. So a lot of the
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problems I faced in my life, I wanted to not
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outsource my leadership. I wanted to find out the
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answers from within myself. So for me, on some level, the fact
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that a tantric lens said that anger
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is just an energy, jealousy is just an energy. And to actually deeply go
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into a state where I could properly experience that, because I'm
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all about field work, it was helpful to me. But
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I think there's so many dodgy tantra schools out there,
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I wouldn't want to suggest that anybody go and find it for have a
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particular experience. I'm much more about teaching people about consent
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with their own bodies first, teaching them about simple experiences.
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They can have at home in order to get more in touch with themselves,
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learning about relationships and how to negotiate them.
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I think the more spiritual aspects of that in terms of acceptance
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of all emotions, has been very helpful. And certainly I
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can play with my own kundalini rising, which, because I
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have a lot of sexual energy, I can play with that I can manifest through
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that. I can put all that libido into my creativity
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or my joy or my love. That's playful. But,
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yeah, I still don't want to eye gaze with strangers. You
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really do touch on something important, which is
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the difference between a philosophy and a culture.
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Culture often gets wrapped up in dogma or
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in habits or in manifestations
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of the philosophy that maybe don't resonate with
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everyone. But like you said before, you don't have to throw
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the baby out with the bathwater. You can still
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enjoy or get interested in or explore the
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philosophy of tantra, of really
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connecting the body and spirit and being
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PRESENt with both in this moment without
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Having to join a cult. Yeah.
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Good. You're clearly a clever woman to make that distinction.
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Yeah. And really take what's helpful from anything in the world and
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leave the rest. I want our bodies to be our homes, and I want
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our hearts to be able to love ourselves and negotiate the
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relationships we want to have. And just the fact my
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stepmother died many years ago, and I watched my
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father live even more, which was a brave
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choice, because she couldn't be there. He wanted
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to enjoy what was on offer even more because she would have wanted to
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be there having that experience. And somehow
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tantra is a little bit in there for me, or the philosophy of embodiment, because
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it's like I get to breathe air, I get to taste food, I get
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to kiss my lover, I get to talk with you.
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You're thousands of miles away, and there's something about just the gratitude of
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being alive and wanting to live really fully and be here
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that marked me from. That experience and that you feel
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that. And that your father. I think of your father
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SPECificALlY FeeLing that EVEN as he. Is he still
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alive? Is he still with us? Yeah. He's said that he has
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embraced this as things may be
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physically more challenging, even as he may. I don't know.
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I don't know what his situation is, but I know that with
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aging can come a host of
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physical maladies. Certainly this is what we hear from the
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culture, right? That, oh, you're getting older. Something hurts. You wake
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00:27:45,178 --> 00:27:48,866
up every day, something hurts. If nothing else, it can change our
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mindset so that we feel like we are incapable of doing some
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of the things that we might have done when we were younger.
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So for your father to embrace that is
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00:28:00,300 --> 00:28:03,862
really inspirational to hear
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about. I love to hear of older people who are
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really seizing life in a new way. I think I mentioned to
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you before that I have a friend who is older. She's in her
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eighty? S, and she's taken a new lover just
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00:28:18,464 --> 00:28:21,870
recently, and she's my idol.
462
00:28:22,370 --> 00:28:26,026
Yeah. And I positively seek those idols out. I wrote
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00:28:26,058 --> 00:28:29,838
an Instagram this week on myth busting around the
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00:28:29,844 --> 00:28:33,406
topic of sexuality. And one of the myths that I wanted to
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00:28:33,428 --> 00:28:37,006
bust in there was like that old people don't have sex.
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You can choose not to have sex. That's absolutely, like, your choice. And
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00:28:40,856 --> 00:28:44,260
definitely the older you get, make all the choices you want.
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00:28:45,130 --> 00:28:48,754
But there was a joke that they might not use their knees
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so much. But apart from that, I love it.
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00:28:52,316 --> 00:28:56,038
Speaking of different philosophies and ways
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00:28:56,124 --> 00:28:59,514
into working with the body, tantra is
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one. Five rhythms is another. Do you have
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00:29:03,200 --> 00:29:06,954
any heroes in the field or any people
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00:29:06,992 --> 00:29:10,734
you really admire whose work has influenced the way that
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00:29:10,772 --> 00:29:14,080
you work with people? Yeah, absolutely.
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00:29:14,690 --> 00:29:18,446
In fact, I wrote about this in my how
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00:29:18,468 --> 00:29:21,886
to live a feral life chapter, which was recently published. But my
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00:29:21,908 --> 00:29:25,090
hero certainly is Bessel van der Kolk.
479
00:29:25,510 --> 00:29:28,994
A very moving story of the way his life
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00:29:29,032 --> 00:29:32,014
progressed. But he basically really brought
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00:29:32,062 --> 00:29:35,794
embodiment in as a thing. So his book
482
00:29:35,832 --> 00:29:39,334
is called the body keeps the score, and I could
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00:29:39,372 --> 00:29:43,122
reread that book 1000 times. So, Bessel van der Kolk,
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00:29:43,186 --> 00:29:46,930
really, the quote that moves me most is trauma
485
00:29:47,010 --> 00:29:50,540
is not stored in the event. It's stored in the body.
486
00:29:50,910 --> 00:29:54,746
So the understanding of embodiment, therefore, is that when we
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00:29:54,768 --> 00:29:58,522
drop into the body, you might find whatever happened
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00:29:58,576 --> 00:30:02,426
in that moment is still somehow in your body. So embodiment helps you
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00:30:02,448 --> 00:30:06,286
defrost that, which is why I spent so long on dance floors. I was
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00:30:06,308 --> 00:30:09,994
defrosting a lot of what was stored in my body. Gabrielle Roth,
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00:30:10,042 --> 00:30:13,694
my friend and teacher, said to me, chloe, how long will
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00:30:13,732 --> 00:30:17,006
your hands cry? I said, I don't
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00:30:17,038 --> 00:30:20,020
know. Yeah,
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00:30:21,670 --> 00:30:25,426
just taking that in for a moment. My hands had a lot of crying
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to do. And
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then luckily, I danced long enough that my hands no
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00:30:32,748 --> 00:30:36,294
longer cry. So whatever event was installed in those
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00:30:36,332 --> 00:30:40,026
hands, through embodying it, I've released it. And they
499
00:30:40,048 --> 00:30:43,590
have now so much to. Say in analogous
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00:30:43,670 --> 00:30:47,046
form, moving from dance therapy to drama
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00:30:47,078 --> 00:30:50,486
therapy, which is my background. The creator of
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00:30:50,528 --> 00:30:53,786
psychodrama was a man named J. L. Moreno,
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00:30:53,978 --> 00:30:57,466
and he had a very similar quote, but it's slightly
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00:30:57,498 --> 00:31:01,230
different. And that was the body remembers what the mind
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00:31:01,300 --> 00:31:05,090
forgets, which is lovely.
506
00:31:05,830 --> 00:31:09,394
And what I have also found in
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00:31:09,432 --> 00:31:12,942
exploring that side of it, once we've moved
508
00:31:13,006 --> 00:31:16,550
through some of the trauma, is that the body also
509
00:31:16,620 --> 00:31:20,134
remembers joy. Yeah. It's not just the pain
510
00:31:20,252 --> 00:31:23,558
and sorrow. It's also that
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00:31:23,644 --> 00:31:27,334
feeling of excitement, of childlike curiosity that
512
00:31:27,372 --> 00:31:31,098
wells up in your chest and shoulders and hands, too.
513
00:31:31,184 --> 00:31:34,860
Right. Like, where do you feel that in your body?
514
00:31:35,230 --> 00:31:39,018
And so bringing those two together is a
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00:31:39,024 --> 00:31:42,160
real opportunity for exploring ecstasy. Absolutely.
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00:31:42,530 --> 00:31:46,334
And really, we live in an era right now where healing through
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00:31:46,372 --> 00:31:49,966
pleasure is becoming much more key, which I
518
00:31:49,988 --> 00:31:53,626
find quite deeply feminine as it goes, that actually bringing
519
00:31:53,658 --> 00:31:57,502
pleasure to some of the pain or simply experiencing pleasure
520
00:31:57,646 --> 00:32:00,500
is a way to really say thank you to life.
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00:32:01,270 --> 00:32:04,866
And that brings me to, you had. I think it was on your
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00:32:04,888 --> 00:32:08,690
website, there's a quote that you said, we aren't
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scared of age impacting our sexual drive
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00:32:12,428 --> 00:32:16,086
and human desires. Yeah. How do
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00:32:16,108 --> 00:32:19,754
you help people move away from that
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00:32:19,792 --> 00:32:23,382
place of fear? How do you help people not be. Scared
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00:32:23,526 --> 00:32:27,206
of aging or their sexuality? People are scared
528
00:32:27,238 --> 00:32:28,060
of both.
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00:32:31,630 --> 00:32:35,262
First of all, the power of narrative is incredible. So I really
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00:32:35,316 --> 00:32:38,766
mean it. And I work with clients over this. It's like, what narrative? A, are
531
00:32:38,788 --> 00:32:42,602
you telling yourself? But b, I think you worked in theater and storytelling.
532
00:32:42,666 --> 00:32:46,218
What role do I want to give myself? And I want to give myself a
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00:32:46,244 --> 00:32:49,790
role where I age in a certain way, given whatever limitations
534
00:32:49,870 --> 00:32:53,554
come my way. And I've looked at role models around that, and so
535
00:32:53,592 --> 00:32:56,994
I will help people write their own scripts around that, write their own
536
00:32:57,032 --> 00:33:00,534
narratives so that they're very aware of. Are you
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00:33:00,652 --> 00:33:04,422
absorbing the culture that says, a woman of 49
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00:33:04,476 --> 00:33:08,274
is now on the shelf and no longer sexually attractive? Or are you writing
539
00:33:08,322 --> 00:33:11,782
a narrative where, like, I'm in touch with my sensuality,
540
00:33:11,926 --> 00:33:14,986
it is now active in this way for me, and I take care of it.
541
00:33:15,008 --> 00:33:18,682
But actually, you're likely to be a better lover than a 20
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00:33:18,736 --> 00:33:22,258
year old. We study things, and you get degrees.
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00:33:22,374 --> 00:33:26,174
And the more years you spend doing something, normally, the MORe ExPerience and
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00:33:26,212 --> 00:33:30,062
the better you get at it. And I really see sex as the same
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00:33:30,116 --> 00:33:33,790
thing. So hopefully, you've learned more about yourself
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00:33:33,860 --> 00:33:37,666
and you've learned how to attune to other people more. So, actually, at
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00:33:37,688 --> 00:33:41,326
49, your sexuality technically should be more alive
548
00:33:41,358 --> 00:33:45,006
than ever. And if you go back to civilizations that
549
00:33:45,048 --> 00:33:48,646
predate some of the more dominant religions today, there
550
00:33:48,668 --> 00:33:52,210
was the more earth based belief systems
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00:33:52,370 --> 00:33:56,018
that women and their fertility and women who are older
552
00:33:56,114 --> 00:33:59,914
were revered as wise people. And I think that probably also
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00:34:00,112 --> 00:34:03,446
included their sexuality. We know a few tricks
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00:34:03,478 --> 00:34:07,130
now. I also
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00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:10,542
feel like bringing us back to talking
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00:34:10,596 --> 00:34:14,414
about really honoring ourselves if
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00:34:14,452 --> 00:34:17,790
we can be better lovers to ourselves.
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00:34:18,130 --> 00:34:21,914
That's the key. Yeah, we're back to myth busting
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00:34:21,962 --> 00:34:25,806
again, really. My degree is in social aNthropology.
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00:34:25,918 --> 00:34:29,762
So culturally, there's quite a lot of weight on women
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00:34:29,816 --> 00:34:33,394
that somehow were in service. Some of that service I've been really
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00:34:33,432 --> 00:34:36,280
glad about. I've loved BrEastfeeding my children.
563
00:34:36,970 --> 00:34:40,626
I loved being pregnant. I accidentally gave birth
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00:34:40,658 --> 00:34:44,070
to my son, free birthed him at home without a Medic.
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00:34:47,370 --> 00:34:50,842
So I've enjoyed that level of service, that level of connection to Life
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00:34:50,896 --> 00:34:54,586
Itself, the opportunity to give birth. But also there's a
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00:34:54,608 --> 00:34:58,266
sense of entitlement in our culture, particularly in the
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00:34:58,288 --> 00:35:02,106
west, but possibly predominantly on the planet
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00:35:02,138 --> 00:35:05,454
earth, where Women's sexuality, herself, with
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00:35:05,492 --> 00:35:09,022
herself, has been given Very little space. So often
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00:35:09,076 --> 00:35:12,400
I'll start off with clients and I'm like, do you date yourself?
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00:35:13,090 --> 00:35:16,786
Whether that's an evening in the bath or going out to a
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00:35:16,808 --> 00:35:20,626
restaurant. The level of getting to know your own body first so that
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00:35:20,648 --> 00:35:24,274
when somebody else touches it, you can say, ah, little bit more like
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00:35:24,312 --> 00:35:28,078
this. This is how I work. This is how much time
576
00:35:28,104 --> 00:35:31,654
I need here before we go to there. So that makes us a
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00:35:31,692 --> 00:35:35,526
excellent lovers. It keeps us safe. And safety in lovemaking is
578
00:35:35,548 --> 00:35:38,680
so key for unraveling into an undone experience.
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00:35:39,050 --> 00:35:42,794
So, yes, technically, taking more and more time with
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00:35:42,832 --> 00:35:46,666
yourself. And if I had one suggestion to make
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00:35:46,688 --> 00:35:50,346
to anyone, it would be slow down. Women's bodies love that. And I'm all for
582
00:35:50,368 --> 00:35:53,838
a quickie, but women's bodies love slowing down.
583
00:35:54,004 --> 00:35:57,534
You can even have a quickie with some slowing down. Just do
584
00:35:57,572 --> 00:36:00,670
less. Just do less in the amount of time. Yes,
585
00:36:00,820 --> 00:36:04,094
exactly. You don't have to do
586
00:36:04,132 --> 00:36:07,954
everything in a short amount of time. Yeah. You can just
587
00:36:07,992 --> 00:36:11,714
do one or two things fully. I love you for
588
00:36:11,752 --> 00:36:15,220
that. I love you for that. This phrase that you just used,
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00:36:15,770 --> 00:36:19,320
unraveling into an undone experience.
590
00:36:19,770 --> 00:36:22,760
Yeah, Chloe, that's beautiful.
591
00:36:23,770 --> 00:36:26,840
To be undone. Yeah.
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00:36:28,030 --> 00:36:31,514
So you mentioned slowing down. You
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00:36:31,552 --> 00:36:35,226
mentioned dating yourself, becoming a
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00:36:35,248 --> 00:36:39,098
lover to yourself. It makes me think of Julia Cameron. Do you
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00:36:39,104 --> 00:36:42,240
know her work? Yes. The artist's way.
596
00:36:42,690 --> 00:36:46,446
Seminal book for creatives. I don't know a single creative who
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00:36:46,468 --> 00:36:50,046
has not been through at least the first four weeks of the
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00:36:50,068 --> 00:36:53,730
artist's way. And then we fall off the wagon.
599
00:36:54,630 --> 00:36:58,222
Been there, done that. But the idea of an artist
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00:36:58,286 --> 00:37:02,066
date is key. And I will say that
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00:37:02,168 --> 00:37:05,350
I probably first read that book 30 years ago,
602
00:37:05,420 --> 00:37:09,270
but the artist date is something that I've really stuck with.
603
00:37:09,340 --> 00:37:13,094
And the thought of having a date with
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00:37:13,132 --> 00:37:16,770
myself, that's also a sensual date. That's a romantic
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00:37:16,850 --> 00:37:20,310
date. That's not just feeding
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00:37:20,470 --> 00:37:24,154
the artists in me, but feeding the
607
00:37:24,352 --> 00:37:27,020
feral beast in me.
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00:37:27,950 --> 00:37:31,420
So I love that you bring that up
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00:37:31,730 --> 00:37:35,006
because we need that. I need that I make a date with
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00:37:35,028 --> 00:37:38,542
myself. Put it in my calendar. So what are three
611
00:37:38,596 --> 00:37:42,406
strategies that our listener could use to shed
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00:37:42,458 --> 00:37:46,274
some of the shame around sensuality and
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00:37:46,312 --> 00:37:49,442
to really move toward that place of being
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00:37:49,576 --> 00:37:50,610
undone?
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00:37:53,590 --> 00:37:57,334
The first thing that really arises in me when I hear that request is
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00:37:57,372 --> 00:38:00,854
not to put pressure on yourself. Because when you put
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00:38:00,892 --> 00:38:03,734
pressure on yourself, there's a sense of
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00:38:03,772 --> 00:38:07,446
contraction. And so in order to move towards
619
00:38:07,548 --> 00:38:10,966
a state of undone, what we want is a sense of expansion.
620
00:38:11,158 --> 00:38:14,794
So deepening and regulating your breath is a great place to
621
00:38:14,832 --> 00:38:18,666
start whatever you're doing. And then secondly, when you
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00:38:18,688 --> 00:38:22,058
talked about the artist date and your creativity,
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00:38:22,234 --> 00:38:26,026
sexuality and creativity, obviously, because it's
624
00:38:26,058 --> 00:38:29,854
how we create babies, they're very, very connected. So you get
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00:38:29,892 --> 00:38:32,720
creative with what your body would like.
626
00:38:33,490 --> 00:38:37,314
So that could be as simple as ask it. I actually do
627
00:38:37,352 --> 00:38:41,202
this asking your body what it wants to wear. Very
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00:38:41,256 --> 00:38:45,106
subtle sensuality to that, whether it's a color or a cloth or
629
00:38:45,128 --> 00:38:48,754
a fabric. And then there's other ways that you
630
00:38:48,792 --> 00:38:52,486
think, well, I'm not a bath person, I'm a shower person, or
631
00:38:52,588 --> 00:38:56,418
I love scents. So I'm going to get myself some really nice oil and I'm
632
00:38:56,434 --> 00:39:00,174
just going to spend 20 minutes just massaging my legs
633
00:39:00,242 --> 00:39:03,914
or my vulva or my lower back or my belly. And
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00:39:03,952 --> 00:39:07,670
when you're doing that, you were very pragmatic.
635
00:39:07,830 --> 00:39:11,422
We're always in a hurry, but take some time so that there's actually love coming
636
00:39:11,476 --> 00:39:13,680
out of your hands towards you.
637
00:39:15,730 --> 00:39:18,942
There's actually love coming out of your hands towards
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00:39:18,996 --> 00:39:22,846
you. And you can add to that if you get going on
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00:39:22,868 --> 00:39:26,674
this, like actually telling yourself, and you could do this with
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00:39:26,712 --> 00:39:30,194
your whole body or different body parts, but also like your
641
00:39:30,232 --> 00:39:33,922
sexual anatomy, love praise. So without any
642
00:39:33,976 --> 00:39:37,478
pressure. Oh, I love you. You look so beautiful.
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00:39:37,644 --> 00:39:41,142
I love the way you're just that color, you smell so
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00:39:41,196 --> 00:39:44,662
good, or that shape that you make just
645
00:39:44,716 --> 00:39:48,418
there. And talking to your own body in this way really brings
646
00:39:48,434 --> 00:39:52,010
it home to itself that it knows it's getting this attitude of love
647
00:39:52,080 --> 00:39:55,338
because our bodies are exposed to a whole heap of
648
00:39:55,344 --> 00:39:58,694
criticism. So already you're starting to awaken the sensual
649
00:39:58,742 --> 00:40:02,494
self because you want to seduce it, because it
650
00:40:02,532 --> 00:40:06,366
may have shied away, because it's had some experiences that didn't make it feel so
651
00:40:06,388 --> 00:40:10,222
good. Or you just got busy, you got rushed. So
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00:40:10,276 --> 00:40:13,838
taking some time. Or if you're a music
653
00:40:13,924 --> 00:40:17,714
person, you put on some music and you think, I'll just dance to one
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00:40:17,752 --> 00:40:21,522
track today. That can be as you wash up
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00:40:21,576 --> 00:40:25,138
or post washing up or as you get dressed. That's a
656
00:40:25,144 --> 00:40:28,918
playful one. If you want
657
00:40:28,924 --> 00:40:32,566
to go a little bit deeper, I would really suggest writing a love letter to
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00:40:32,588 --> 00:40:35,974
yourself. And that can be to a body part,
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00:40:36,172 --> 00:40:39,698
whatever you call that body part, and telling it all the things that you think
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00:40:39,724 --> 00:40:43,366
that body part needs to hear. Thank you for giving birth
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00:40:43,398 --> 00:40:46,954
to two children so incredibly. Or, like,
662
00:40:47,152 --> 00:40:50,586
we've come a long way, me and you. And I really love the way that
663
00:40:50,608 --> 00:40:54,270
you were here for the whole time. I'm sorry I forgot you at moment,
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00:40:54,420 --> 00:40:58,062
and I'm going to try and remember you a little bit more. And about
665
00:40:58,116 --> 00:41:01,582
that time, I'm sorry that we had that experience, but we're here
666
00:41:01,636 --> 00:41:05,146
now and today this is what we're going to do.
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00:41:05,268 --> 00:41:08,882
I promise to try and connect with you more. So
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00:41:08,936 --> 00:41:12,100
writing a love letter to a body part or yourself. Yeah,
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00:41:13,110 --> 00:41:16,840
really great ways. I think sometimes when we think of
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00:41:17,290 --> 00:41:20,390
writing a love letter to ourselves or to our body
671
00:41:20,460 --> 00:41:23,702
parts, we can go into a place
672
00:41:23,756 --> 00:41:27,490
of what we feel needs to be positivity,
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00:41:27,570 --> 00:41:31,034
which can be toxic positivity. Maybe we don't really believe it,
674
00:41:31,152 --> 00:41:34,582
right? Maybe the damage or the trauma, the bodily
675
00:41:34,646 --> 00:41:38,474
trauma that we have is such that we don't believe it
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00:41:38,512 --> 00:41:42,222
when we say something kind to our body
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00:41:42,276 --> 00:41:45,502
parts. But this idea of making
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00:41:45,556 --> 00:41:49,166
amends and recognizing the fullness of a
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00:41:49,188 --> 00:41:52,786
relationship that you have with your body, the
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00:41:52,808 --> 00:41:56,322
fullness of a relationship that I have with the breasts that have
681
00:41:56,456 --> 00:41:59,874
breastfed two children and have
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00:41:59,992 --> 00:42:03,650
changed and are changing almost every day before
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00:42:03,720 --> 00:42:07,222
my very eyes, acknowledging the fullness of
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00:42:07,276 --> 00:42:10,854
that relationship rather than just
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00:42:10,892 --> 00:42:14,566
saying, I think you're beautiful. Yes, it may
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00:42:14,588 --> 00:42:18,138
be. I think you're beautiful. But it's also really,
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00:42:18,304 --> 00:42:21,562
thank you for all that we've been through together. Thank
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you. Really
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beautiful. I also have to say your honey pot
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meditation. Yes. For people who are,
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because sometimes we are
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busy. And when you say not to put pressure
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on yourself, sometimes if we have a lot of
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fear or anxiety around
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our sensuality or sexuality, it's nice to have a
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guide. It's nice to have someone lead us
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through that exploration. And your
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honey pot meditation is lovely. I did it this
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morning. Oh, good. I slowed down
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and I enjoyed it. And people can get that on your website,
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right? They can get that on my website, yeah. And if you want to drop
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the link in the show notes. That's an easy way as well. Yeah,
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it is nice to have a held space, it really is. And
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the other thing is not shaming yourself. And I think you've touched or alluded to
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that in your previous comment, because the great thing about
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bodies and mind body intelligence, which is a concept or
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a pragmatism that I work with, is there's a really good reason
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normally that bodies shut down, and so to trust
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the beauty of your body's own logic so you don't make it wrong for
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shutting down. But perhaps sometimes we inquire
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or we want to start encouraging it out to
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play again. But I would never rush anybody. And it's really finding out
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what was the intelligence behind that. Oh, you shut down
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because there was a kid in 7th grade maybe that continually
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told you you were ugly or that your knees were fat
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or whatever it was, and then you've never felt the
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same about your knees since. And actually we need to reeducate your
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knees to say, hey, I actually love you.
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I actually think the pointy bits on you are like just the
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most incredible asset, or I have felt ashamed
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about you, but like, I'm going to bring you home because
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that story is outdated now and the boy in 7th grade has
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probably got his own thing going on by now. Anyway. Love that
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knees are getting so much attention in this episode.
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Knees deserve more attention. Let's do an ode to the knees.
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The ode to the knees. Yeah.
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Lovely. So how can people get
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in touch with you? I offer a free call to anybody that wants to
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work with me, and the trouble is that most people do want to work
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with me after free call. But you
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can get quite a lot out of that free call, which is probably why they
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want to carry on. And that's a good way to feel
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out, like what you might want to work with, but also explore. Ask me any
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question you want about what is embodiment? How does that work? What will we
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do? You can head over to my website and take a look over
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there. I'm running a course next
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spring, 2024. I've written that
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because your sexuality and your relationship with your body is
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very connected to your leadership and the decisions you're making.
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So you can hop on that waitlist. Because once you start to really connect
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with your body, it starts to lead you into the direction probably that you
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want to be going in. And that might be large or small ways that might
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be a travel plan, or it might be negotiating your
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relationships differently, or telling your older children that they actually need to
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pay the food bill now. So that's another
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way that they can connect with me. So that's a
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sexuality and leadership. That also sounds like
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sovereignty to me. The course is called sex and
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sovereignty. Oh, great. Look at
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to. So Chloe and I realized our brains
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must work somewhat similarly because we
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were chatting. So Chloe's company is called Feral Grace,
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which is just such a great name. And I was telling
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her that recently, as people have been asking me
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about my life after our children have left home,
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I've been saying that I've gone feral. So
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now we want to get a sign for our door, like the
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gone fishing signs that people put up when they've left their
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office or left their shop. And we want one that says gone
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feral. We're going to work on that. We're going to get it. We're
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both getting it. And we've definitely made a feral club now.
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Yeah, the feral. Definitely a thing. The feral
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fifty s. I love it. I will put links to
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all of this in the show notes. We're going to do a
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live q and a sometime around the time that this episode
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comes out. Yeah, by the time the episode airs, we'll have more
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information put together about that. But I'm really excited about doing that
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with you and having you answer all the hot and
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heated questions that people, I'm sure have about how
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to introduce a little more feral energy into
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their lives. Yeah, I think it would be great if also people
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can ask them anonymously, which means you get to have the topic
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answered. That actually the burning question that you'd never say out
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loud. Or maybe you would. Yeah,
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I'll ask it for you. You just send me the question and I'll ask it
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for you. Yeah, I probably had the same question. She's gone feral.
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It'll be fine. Thank you so much for sharing
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your time and your peace and your
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glorious energy with me here today.
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I'm really looking forward to our Q-A-I. Love hanging out with you,
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Brie. Yeah. Thank you for listening to the pause to go podcast.
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Special thanks to Codebase, coworking and WTJU radio for
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their support. This has been an awkward,
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sage production.

Chloe de Sousa
Love, Sexuality and Relationship Coach, Female Leadership Mentor.
Chloe De Sousa is not your average love, sex, and relationship coach; she's a luminary with over two decades of experience in guiding individuals through the depths of intimacy and self-discovery. As a seasoned 5 rhythms dance teacher and a dance movement psychotherapist, she's not just about theory; she's all about embodiment and transformation.
With a passion for unlocking the boundless potential within each person, Chloe empowers her clients to embrace their ecstatic sexuality and step into their own unique leadership journey. Her approach is rooted in trauma-informed practices, blending the latest findings in modern science with the timeless wisdom of ancient tantra.
Known as a "legend of space holding" and hailed as the "queen" of 5 rhythms dance facilitation, Chloe's reputation precedes her. Her influence extends globally, offering 1-1 coaching, transformative courses, and captivating talks that bridge the gap between ancient wisdom and modern understanding.
Beyond her spoken words, Chloe is also a published author, sharing her profound insights with the world. In her eyes, pleasure is not a privilege but a birthright for everyone.
www.feralgrace.net