Photography as Meditation: Being in the pulse of your life.

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And it opens up.

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This well of knowledge and wisdom and.

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Uh, witnessing of yourself that can actually help you live your life more deeply.

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Like opened everything up to what really actually matters.

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The only thing that matters.

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Is right now.

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And right now, whatever, you're looking at, pressing a button to.

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There is something so.

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Earth shatteringly vital about that.

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Because you're choosing to do that.

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You were.

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Intuitively choosing.

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This out of everything available to you in your whole life.

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Good.

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Good morning.

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Oh, I haven't spoken a word yet.

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It's six 30 in the morning.

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I already recorded the podcast episode yesterday.

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But.

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This felt pressing.

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I wake up.

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Oftentimes I wake up with.

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Oh racing.

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Chest.

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I just like something sitting on my chest.

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And thinking of all the things.

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I have to do or want to do.

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But the most frustrating.

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Part is the translation.

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I start thinking of things I want to create.

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Well things I want to make.

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And as I'm laying there in bed, I guess the sun's not even up.

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I start feeling this.

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Agitation.

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Because my brain is trying to.

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Translate.

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My gut.

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And I'm realizing.

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That doesn't work.

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I was on a call and.

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A coaching call.

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And I had explained that I have this really frustrating.

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Sensation of like, So much enthusiasm and energy.

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Things I want to do.

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And create and experience.

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And then it feels like.

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My forehead.

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The brain.

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He was like, I get the visual of like this alien movie, like, oh, like it's trying his hardest to.

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Speak.

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And to make sense.

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Of the.

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Intuition and the gut and the creator and the visionary.

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But I'm asking it to do.

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It's a job that.

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It's impossible.

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For it to do.

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The person guiding this call.

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Um, her name is Pea the Feary.

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And she is.

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Magical bad-ass and, um, She said.

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Can you innovate? The.

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Mind.

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To sit in the back seat.

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The mind can come out.

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Later after the transmission is complete after.

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That flow.

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Has taken place.

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But.

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Putting it in front.

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Of the visionary of your gut of your intuition.

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It's like stunting.

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Mate.

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So like, as soon as she said that, I was like, Yes.

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Oh, my God.

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Yes.

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That's why it's never a problem when I'm taking photos, because I never let that bitch ass mind in front of my.

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Um, It's like, oh my God.

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Yeah.

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Like in, even as I was laying in bed this morning, like five 30, I'm like, ah, Go fucking back to sleep.

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Oh my gosh.

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Go back to sleep.

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And I just kept thinking, thinking.

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About this feeling inside of me of like, oh, And like a writing, like in my head as I was.

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Laying there.

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But I noticed.

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It wasn't just thoughts.

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It was, I was editing it too.

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And that's the problem.

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We're not here to edit.

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Like a channeling of creative energy and vision.

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And.

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We have to open and let all of that through in its full embodiment and expansion expansion, and all of that.

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And then we can come visit it.

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And take a look.

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And I'm not like vilifying your brains.

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Brains are fricking incredible.

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But.

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I think we, oh, we put them too high on a pedestal in comparison to our gut and that inner.

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Magic in every one of us.

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And actually, this is perfect because, um, The episode I recorded yesterday that I will plug in after this little.

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Earliest morning spiel.

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Um, Is all about.

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I get into a little bit of the NLP stuff, but our.

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Limited ability to even recognize all that's available to us.

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In a moment and how.

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Our photo taking or our art making, whatever it is.

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Is this like next level? Different.

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Quantum plane.

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Wand or facilitator or translator that actually does.

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Exactly what we needed to do.

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And that's why.

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Meditation is so important and also so hard.

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It's because.

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We are so used to our brains, taking the lead.

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And when we're asked to sit there and just let it all go.

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Just watch your thoughts and not attached to them.

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It's like what? But.

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But there, but that could be really important, but will you wait? But by attaching and clinging to any one specific rumination or thought or whatever.

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You're immediately shutting off.

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Your ability to perceive.

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The rest of the universes.

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Offerings or.

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Existence.

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I guess her brain can only.

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Process so much.

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So that's why photography.

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As meditation.

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Can be this.

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Extraordinary way of.

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Not only.

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Helping.

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Quiet that mind because you're kind of satisfying it in the way that you're doing and it like.

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It's easier to like shut off.

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It's like, okay, well she's doing something.

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And you have that thing in your hand and you're like in a task.

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Almost.

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By taking a picture, taking a picture.

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But it's not like a cerebral act.

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Like if you really allow in work.

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With.

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Your impulse, not even work with it, but allow it just free it.

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And let your hand your finger become an extension of like, Whatever the hell's coming up without trying to make it anything without trying to make it pretty without trying to do it the way you've seen it done before.

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Then the act in itself.

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Removes you from.

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That hyper fixation, that hypervigilance of like, Judgments and should.

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And productivity and.

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Do.

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Life.

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And it opens up.

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This well of knowledge and wisdom and.

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Uh, witnessing of yourself that can actually help you live your life more deeply.

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Like opened everything up to what really actually matters.

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The only thing that matters.

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Is right now.

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And right now, whatever, you're looking at, pressing a button to.

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There is something so.

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Earth shatteringly vital about that.

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Because you're choosing to do that.

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You were.

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Intuitively choosing.

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This out of everything available to you in your whole life.

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I don't know, it might sound like.

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Inflating a situation or something, but.

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I think that's again, our mind trying to rationalize and like, oh, there, there.

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It's like, what do we benefit from? Like, Simmering ourselves down.

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Like when we find a synchronicity and we're like, oh my gosh, Oh, my gosh.

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And we feel like it's like this other world trying to communicate with us and it's like, well, Um, the likelihood of seeing that it's like, what fuck off.

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It's so rude.

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Y try to squeeze the ma that's like a kid.

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Coming up to you.

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With like magic and excitement in their eyes over something.

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And you being linked.

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Well, actually, What really happened there? And it's so funny because it's like, so.

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Understood that kids have.

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Such more ability to perceive.

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What's actually going on in life.

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I've always had this weird, really weird.

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Relationship with time.

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And I think.

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That that really feeds into me opening my eyes and feeling this like, Oh, my.

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Get up.

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Do something do get, get this out, do it, do.

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Be live, breathe.

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Even the anxiousness for space.

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Go get space.

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No one else is up.

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Go wake up, be in space.

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Time even before I had kids.

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I would wake up.

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Way earlier than I even want it to, because I would like get off on being the first one, walking down around the neighborhood I lived in, in San Francisco, like, oh my God, no one else is up.

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I have this whole place to myself.

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I remember, even when I worked a job that I enjoyed in a photo studio.

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I would have a doctor's appointment or something in the morning.

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And then I would be in a Uber on the way back and be looking at people that are sitting at a cafe, reading a book.

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Or I know having a coffee date and I would have such like, Ah, I felt like an animal in a cage.

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I'm like, oh my gosh.

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Look what you're doing with your time.

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I have to go be in this space.

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Not allowed to leave.

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I got a B in that space.

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I, I loved my job.

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I loved the people I worked with.

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And yet.

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I was like, oh my gosh.

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To have to be somewhere.

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With this time.

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I mean come 1130 in the morning.

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On the weekend I'd be like, oh my gosh, the day's almost over.

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Sunday, scaries.

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Every Sunday.

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Only helped by Larry.

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Um, Larry David from curb, your enthusiasm.

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I started feeling really anxious and just tell my partner I'm.

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I need Larry.

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Ah, Such fickle creatures.

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We are.

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I was sitting on my porch.

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I'm rocking in the middle of the day.

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And I had this feeling come over me like.

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But here it is.

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I've always.

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Wanted this.

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I think I'm trying right now, look around for, Part-time work or, you know, just something to ease.

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Monthly expenses, but I've always wanted.

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To meander through my days, however, I want to meander through my days.

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And it's here.

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And I ironically, I'm spending a lot of my day.

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Looking for.

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What to do in that time.

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And it will be taken away from me again.

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By myself.

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What have you wanted per so long? And then once you got it, you didn't realize you had it.

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So strange.

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And how can you reverse engineer? Like.

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I'm thinking instead of, you know, getting a part-time job, I'm like, Hmm.

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What else can we take away from the expenses? The monthly expenses.

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Because there's many different ways to slice the spread.

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Right.

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But I think sometimes we can forget.

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And we, just, to me, like if I just got to do more.

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I have to do more.

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I have to be more, make more.

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But I'm in a season of pruning.

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Healing and pruning.

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Okay, I'm going to drink more of my coffee out of this.

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Beautifully precious mug.

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That my friend Morgan Boca, Vick.

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Created.

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Oh, I just love it.

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It's just so.

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Perfectly imperfect.

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And the best way.

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Um, she had made it, I photograph there.

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Um, Their art, our teach and market.

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So Lakeside fleet and mystic market collab.

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So it was like a bunch of vendors and she made these mugs.

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Um, for the event and was generous enough to gift it to me, which is so beautiful.

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And she's also a fricking magical.

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Being, oh my God.

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She's been on the podcast before she's on subset two.

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Her name is lava lamp lounge on sub stack.

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I'll link to it.

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in the show notes as well.

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So you can take a look.

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I'm also trying to help my focus with, um, mushroom.

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Coffee.

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So.

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I'm not putting hot water with the mushroom coffee and putting the mushroom coffee in the coffee.

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Um, But the mushroom coffee is only like half calf.

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I don't really know if it's helping, but it makes me feel good that I'm doing it.

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Okay.

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I will now roll into.

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The original programming that was.

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Planned for this episode.

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Um, And you're about to roll into me, blabbing about.

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Basically photography as meditation and how I was going on a walk.

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With the kids and telling myself.

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Oh, I don't need the camera.

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And.

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Everything that happened after that.

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Okay.

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Enjoy.

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Hello.

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Hello and welcome to another episode of help me see.

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I come to you from the wide open space of a Monday afternoon with my kids and school.

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Oh, my gosh, it's been.

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Really.

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Strange.

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To have this much space.

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Um, And I'm looking to not make.

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That mean pressure for me, like, oh, here's all that space.

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Here's the space you wanted.

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Now, what are you got to do with that? You kind of get so much done.

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Yeah.

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I've really been intentional about.

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Giving myself.

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Dare I say.

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Leisure time.

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They want to have a bunch of stuff on the list.

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I want to get done.

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I'll stop and go outside and read.

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Some of my book first.

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And like rock on a rocking chair and I'm kind of.

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Soothing myself as if I'm a child.

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I am.

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It still hurts my heart so much.

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Silas, my three-year-old who has never been in daycare or school or anything.

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He was so stoked to the first week.

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And now this week it's like, oh, That wasn't a novelty.

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It's not a novelty anymore.

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And, um, He wanted me to come in with him.

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And he said.

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I want to stay at my house.

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I just want to hang out with you.

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I want to be with you.

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So painful.

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Um, And as much as I, in that moment want to be like, It's fine.

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You need to stay home.

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I've noticed in myself over the.

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Past couple of days, like just this.

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Feeling of.light

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teness like this feeling of.

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light love.

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That.

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Overwhelms me in.

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I think it's because.

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I have.

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The space and what feels like in that, like the safety for my nervous system to be able to.

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Have time to myself.

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And then with that, I'm able to.

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Enjoy a different kind of presence with them.

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When they are home.

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Um, what I want to talk about today is how.

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We were going on a family walk.

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Sunday night.

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I knew he had school the next day.

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And, um, We were all going out and I went to grab my phone.

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And I know, I shouldn't know.

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I'm not going to have my phone.

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I want to be free and not having anything to hold on to or.

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And then I was like, oh, but pictures, like, I want to be able to take pictures and then I'm like, oh no, You don't need to take pictures.

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It's the same old walk.

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It's fine.

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Just just be present.

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And then when I said that, like my ears perked up and I'm like, Bitch, you know, better than.

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My version of presence is the photo taking.

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I don't have to take the photos.

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But I want the option to take the photos.

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So I brought my phone.

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And, uh, As soon as we start walking, as soon as we get on the sidewalk.

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Bam.

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Bam.

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Bam.

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Take this picture, this wonderful picture of.

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My partner and my shadow.

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And then the kids were ahead of us on bikes and scooters.

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Um, I always have.

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Loved this family portrait idea.

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That is a mix of.

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It's the actual bodies and in the frame, but also the shadows kind of started years ago when it was just us and our dog Tyson.

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Um, And we'd be walking with him and I would take a picture of our shadows, but his little body was in there.

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Um, So anyway, um, you know, I take those pictures and I laugh to myself.

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I'm like, okay, cool.

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It toots like, w we just.

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We just started the walk.

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Let's just keep going.

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And then I start laughing to myself thinking about.

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How deeply ingrained it is.

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To subscribe to a certain version of presence.

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Even when my experience is.

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Knowingly different than that.

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And.

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After that little tug of war situation for the first two minutes.

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I found myself really going ham and just taking a lot of pictures.

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And, you know, it's funny because just because I'm.

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Taking pictures doesn't mean I'm always looking at the.

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The viewfinder or the, the phone camera.

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Um, so oftentimes I'll like, miss it and I'll like, We take a picture cutting off their head or something because I'm looking at them in real life.

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But.

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I really want to highlight and draw out.

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What's happening there and what's possible for happening there.

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And that experience.

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You know how, when you're taking a picture and you're like, ah, this.

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This isn't doing it.

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Justice.

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That's how I feel.

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About reality.

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Sometimes.

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I got to take the picture.

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Because when I'm looking at it, It's like.

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It's that moment.

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Like, ah, Oh, my gosh.

394
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Look at this.

395
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Look at this.

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Silas is riding in front of me, this curly red hair, sticking out from the sides of his helmet.

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And he was writing towards.

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His dad.

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And the sun was behind his dad.

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And I was behind Silas.

401
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So it was just like this magical.

402
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Like movie scene.

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And I take the picture.

404
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'cause I wonder my wonder later, I can edit this in a way that it actually feels like for me, Because.

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It's so breathtaking, but even in reality, it's not as breathtaking as it feels.

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Like visually.

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And I think about.

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How we don't.

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See all the possibilities available to us.

410
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And life happens really fast.

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And.

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You know, from an NLP perspective.

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I'm going to read a little bit of information, um, from my.

414
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Huge.

415
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Hunka NLP certification book.

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I took my certification with the just fucking fantastic, magical being that is Hayley Carr, and I will link information.

417
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Below.

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Uh, or in the show notes.

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00:28:11,552.2675737 --> 00:28:13,22.2675737
And okay.

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00:28:13,172.2675737 --> 00:28:13,682.2675737
So.

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To get a little science-y.

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There are.

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2 million bits of information.

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Coming at you per second.

425
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Those are.

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Coming through.

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Internal filters.

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That are your attitudes, your values, your beliefs, your memories, your decisions, your language, your meta-programs and time, space, and matter energy.

429
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So those around seven chunks.

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Filter to inform your internal map of reality.

431
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So every second, your senses are bombarded with 2 million bits of information.

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And then your Raz, your reticular activating system.

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Is what kind of sorts it all out.

434
00:29:00,802.2675737 --> 00:29:05,512.2675737
And deciphers which information is let into the conscious mind.

435
00:29:06,142.2675737 --> 00:29:09,592.2675737
And what goes into the recesses of the unconscious mind.

436
00:29:11,392.2675737 --> 00:29:17,2.2675737
So it goes through a process of deletion distortion and generalization based on your internal filters.

437
00:29:17,2.2675737 --> 00:29:20,902.2675737
To determine which information makes it through to become your experience of reality.

438
00:29:22,842.2675737 --> 00:29:24,282.2675737
So to put it into numbers.

439
00:29:24,882.2675737 --> 00:29:28,32.2675737
Your experience of what you know, to be real.

440
00:29:28,482.2675737 --> 00:29:30,252.2675737
Your map of reality.

441
00:29:30,762.2675737 --> 00:29:34,152.2675737
Is less than 0.01%

442
00:29:34,212.2675737 --> 00:29:36,672.2675737
of reality or potentiality.

443
00:29:37,632.2675737 --> 00:29:38,52.2675737
Of.

444
00:29:39,132.2675737 --> 00:29:41,352.2675737
The territory, like what's available to you.

445
00:29:41,712.2675737 --> 00:29:42,192.2675737
At all time.

446
00:29:44,692.2675737 --> 00:29:46,432.2675737
Uh, note on intuition and memory.

447
00:29:46,582.2675737 --> 00:29:50,362.2675737
Your memory is stored in every cell of your being at the subconscious level.

448
00:29:50,392.2675737 --> 00:29:58,552.2675737
And it's a snapshot of a lived experience, but every single bit of information for each lived experience, including the raw data without meaning subscribed.

449
00:29:58,942.2675737 --> 00:30:02,32.2675737
It's still being stored in the depths of the unconscious.

450
00:30:03,722.2675737 --> 00:30:14,342.2675737
So when you think your intuition is unreliable or woo, compared to your conscious logical understanding of a situation, Just remember that the conscious mind remembers almost nothing.

451
00:30:15,452.2675737 --> 00:30:16,442.2675737
I fucking believe that.

452
00:30:17,252.2675737 --> 00:30:19,832.2675737
And create meaning from your memories.

453
00:30:20,852.2675737 --> 00:30:24,362.2675737
Which are only a small fraction of your whole lived experience.

454
00:30:25,82.2675737 --> 00:30:31,982.2675737
The intuition on the other hand has also stored without assigning meaning every other piece of data that enters your senses.

455
00:30:32,492.2675737 --> 00:30:34,52.2675737
And stores it in your nervous system.

456
00:30:35,492.2675737 --> 00:30:39,92.2675737
This is why we can get a feeling before we have words for it.

457
00:30:40,82.2675737 --> 00:30:43,922.2675737
Because the feeling is based on all the information you've ever taken in ever.

458
00:30:46,222.2675737 --> 00:30:47,62.2675737
Okay, I'm going to stop there.

459
00:30:49,312.2675737 --> 00:30:50,452.2675737
When we think about.

460
00:30:52,72.2675737 --> 00:30:54,262.2675737
How much stock we put into.

461
00:30:54,262.2675737 --> 00:30:56,512.2675737
What we consider to be evidence.

462
00:30:57,562.2675737 --> 00:30:58,342.2675737
It makes me laugh.

463
00:30:58,372.2675737 --> 00:30:59,602.2675737
It sounds so pathetic.

464
00:31:00,52.2675737 --> 00:31:01,822.2675737
Oh, well, what's the evidence.

465
00:31:02,992.2675737 --> 00:31:03,352.2675737
But.

466
00:31:03,802.2675737 --> 00:31:07,732.2675737
When you hear that? Now I go, woo.

467
00:31:07,842.2675737 --> 00:31:09,282.2675737
That's why your gut.

468
00:31:10,122.2675737 --> 00:31:11,382.2675737
In your intuition.

469
00:31:12,672.2675737 --> 00:31:15,582.2675737
Is almost always right.

470
00:31:16,752.2675737 --> 00:31:18,432.2675737
It's far.

471
00:31:19,62.2675737 --> 00:31:24,102.2675737
Wiser than what you can cognitively recall.

472
00:31:24,522.2675737 --> 00:31:25,842.2675737
And make sense of.

473
00:31:27,582.2675737 --> 00:31:28,242.2675737
The most.

474
00:31:28,662.2675737 --> 00:31:30,312.2675737
Important things in life.

475
00:31:30,432.2675737 --> 00:31:31,692.2675737
Make no sense.

476
00:31:32,52.2675737 --> 00:31:33,702.2675737
We can't figure out.

477
00:31:35,802.2675737 --> 00:31:37,962.2675737
So when I think about this from.

478
00:31:37,962.2675737 --> 00:31:40,602.2675737
Uh, photo taking perspective.

479
00:31:40,602.2675737 --> 00:31:42,282.2675737
I think about how.

480
00:31:42,282.2675737 --> 00:31:46,122.2675737
That impulse to take that camera up and to.

481
00:31:46,932.2675737 --> 00:31:49,452.2675737
Point it at the thing that you're pointing it at.

482
00:31:52,92.2675737 --> 00:31:52,782.2675737
Is not.

483
00:31:53,832.2675737 --> 00:31:58,242.2675737
A fluke of inspiration or a fluke of.

484
00:31:59,22.2675737 --> 00:32:06,612.2675737
Um, You know, skill or whatever that we can like shallowly deduce it to be.

485
00:32:06,972.2675737 --> 00:32:07,512.2675737
It's.

486
00:32:09,792.2675737 --> 00:32:12,432.2675737
Every memory in your.

487
00:32:13,32.2675737 --> 00:32:16,332.2675737
Body, every experience you've ever lived.

488
00:32:16,752.2675737 --> 00:32:17,472.2675737
Every.

489
00:32:17,982.2675737 --> 00:32:19,62.2675737
Intuitive.

490
00:32:21,102.2675737 --> 00:32:23,502.2675737
Thought and sense that you have.

491
00:32:24,312.2675737 --> 00:32:25,962.2675737
Rising up in you and.

492
00:32:27,12.2675737 --> 00:32:28,932.2675737
Causing you to act.

493
00:32:31,902.2675737 --> 00:32:33,72.2675737
And then to think about.

494
00:32:33,702.2675737 --> 00:32:35,142.2675737
How we can shame ourselves.

495
00:32:35,322.2675737 --> 00:32:35,802.2675737
Be like.

496
00:32:36,432.2675737 --> 00:32:38,22.2675737
Oh, no, it's not the time to take a picture.

497
00:32:38,82.2675737 --> 00:32:39,822.2675737
Oh, Just be present.

498
00:32:39,852.2675737 --> 00:32:44,742.2675737
What is more present than that? This.

499
00:32:47,352.2675737 --> 00:32:49,932.2675737
And then it doesn't stop there because.

500
00:32:51,162.2675737 --> 00:32:55,332.2675737
Especially if you are a photographic artist that.

501
00:32:56,12.2675737 --> 00:32:57,722.2675737
Enjoys the editing process.

502
00:32:58,562.2675737 --> 00:33:01,952.2675737
Then you bring that picture into your world.

503
00:33:02,702.2675737 --> 00:33:06,302.2675737
And you can work within it and play within it.

504
00:33:07,232.2675737 --> 00:33:10,52.2675737
To make it look more like what it felt like.

505
00:33:10,682.2675737 --> 00:33:13,52.2675737
In your body when you experienced it.

506
00:33:15,842.2675737 --> 00:33:21,32.2675737
Regardless of how natural or not the editing is.

507
00:33:21,32.2675737 --> 00:33:22,742.2675737
So often I.

508
00:33:22,742.2675737 --> 00:33:25,432.2675737
I think I've shared this before a while ago, currently.

509
00:33:25,462.2675737 --> 00:33:31,582.2675737
I'm really gravitating towards super pushed, strong, like less natural color.

510
00:33:31,642.2675737 --> 00:33:32,512.2675737
And before.

511
00:33:32,902.2675737 --> 00:33:35,662.2675737
Like for years, I was really into more muted.

512
00:33:36,172.2675737 --> 00:33:36,832.2675737
Tones.

513
00:33:37,702.2675737 --> 00:33:40,612.2675737
And, uh, I talked about this on a past episode, but.

514
00:33:41,602.2675737 --> 00:33:42,652.2675737
I had felt like.

515
00:33:42,652.2675737 --> 00:33:52,42.2675737
You know, those growing pains of Feeling like I was identifying with my old identity that you was this kind of look but it's not filling me.

516
00:33:52,72.2675737 --> 00:33:52,882.2675737
It's not.

517
00:33:55,942.2675737 --> 00:33:58,342.2675737
I don't feel that click inside.

518
00:33:59,642.2675737 --> 00:34:02,522.2675737
As I'm editing and saying this, it just feels like.

519
00:34:04,982.2675737 --> 00:34:08,72.2675737
Uh, past version of what I would consider to be.

520
00:34:09,242.2675737 --> 00:34:09,902.2675737
My truth.

521
00:34:10,532.2675737 --> 00:34:11,822.2675737
So I had to catch up with it.

522
00:34:14,552.2675737 --> 00:34:16,172.2675737
We're always growing, we're always learning.

523
00:34:16,202.2675737 --> 00:34:18,122.2675737
We're always morphing, transforming.

524
00:34:19,562.2675737 --> 00:34:20,672.2675737
Wonderfulness.

525
00:34:21,92.2675737 --> 00:34:21,692.2675737
Pain.

526
00:34:22,832.2675737 --> 00:34:23,372.2675737
Joy.

527
00:34:23,402.2675737 --> 00:34:24,62.2675737
All of it.

528
00:34:26,12.2675737 --> 00:34:28,292.2675737
But sometimes we can get so locked in.

529
00:34:28,292.2675737 --> 00:34:31,802.2675737
The story of who we have been up until this point.

530
00:34:32,342.2675737 --> 00:34:34,592.2675737
That there's this push and pull that happens.

531
00:34:34,592.2675737 --> 00:34:37,892.2675737
Like, I, it, like, you're not quite here and you're not quite there.

532
00:34:37,892.2675737 --> 00:34:42,992.2675737
You're like straddling that line and that can be the uncomfortable and it also can be really hard to.

533
00:34:43,712.2675737 --> 00:34:47,702.2675737
Have verbiage for that, like to be able to explain it and identify it.

534
00:34:49,502.2675737 --> 00:34:50,792.2675737
But I think that's.

535
00:34:51,992.2675737 --> 00:34:53,612.2675737
Where the pictures.

536
00:34:54,662.2675737 --> 00:34:55,922.2675737
R like this.

537
00:34:57,482.2675737 --> 00:34:59,42.2675737
Powerful cheat code.

538
00:34:59,612.2675737 --> 00:35:00,932.2675737
To keeping you.

539
00:35:00,932.2675737 --> 00:35:02,432.2675737
Honest with yourself.

540
00:35:02,912.2675737 --> 00:35:05,672.2675737
To keeping you tethered to yourself.

541
00:35:06,542.2675737 --> 00:35:10,232.2675737
I made this, this primal instinct came up in me and I made this.

542
00:35:10,652.2675737 --> 00:35:13,562.2675737
And only you can feel whether or not.

543
00:35:15,212.2675737 --> 00:35:17,492.2675737
It's resonant and only you can.

544
00:35:18,332.2675737 --> 00:35:22,622.2675737
Diagnose an orient to what you feel about the picture you just took.

545
00:35:24,722.2675737 --> 00:35:28,22.2675737
So that's why I say when you land on any photo that you took.

546
00:35:28,562.2675737 --> 00:35:29,282.2675737
Look at it.

547
00:35:30,602.2675737 --> 00:35:31,472.2675737
Back up.

548
00:35:32,342.2675737 --> 00:35:33,272.2675737
Zoom in.

549
00:35:33,812.2675737 --> 00:35:35,282.2675737
Back the fuck up.

550
00:35:35,972.2675737 --> 00:35:37,922.2675737
Change your seat of consciousness.

551
00:35:38,72.2675737 --> 00:35:38,732.2675737
Don't look at it.

552
00:35:38,732.2675737 --> 00:35:40,112.2675737
As I took this photo.

553
00:35:40,472.2675737 --> 00:35:41,852.2675737
Come out of that seat.

554
00:35:42,512.2675737 --> 00:35:46,52.2675737
And look at it as if someone else took that photo and start to think about that.

555
00:35:46,52.2675737 --> 00:35:54,332.2675737
If you need to give it some air and some space, sometimes, um, our judgments on ourselves are so intense that we have a hard time seeing past.

556
00:35:55,322.2675737 --> 00:35:56,642.2675737
Inside that bottle.

557
00:35:57,212.2675737 --> 00:36:01,202.2675737
But when you come outside of the bottle, You're able to read the label more easily.

558
00:36:05,302.2675737 --> 00:36:06,772.2675737
We know that where your focus.

559
00:36:07,402.2675737 --> 00:36:10,102.2675737
Is on where your attention is on expands.

560
00:36:10,972.2675737 --> 00:36:11,872.2675737
No matter what it is.

561
00:36:14,32.2675737 --> 00:36:16,102.2675737
The photo show you what you're focusing on.

562
00:36:19,192.2675737 --> 00:36:20,782.2675737
So loosen up that grip.

563
00:36:21,502.2675737 --> 00:36:22,852.2675737
Loosen up that.

564
00:36:22,852.2675737 --> 00:36:31,192.2675737
Filtering that might happen around what you do and do not take pictures of or how you do it and really give it space.

565
00:36:32,692.2675737 --> 00:36:34,12.2675737
Breathe into it.

566
00:36:34,462.2675737 --> 00:36:36,382.2675737
Let your instinct.

567
00:36:37,672.2675737 --> 00:36:40,342.2675737
Live as authentically as possible.

568
00:36:41,872.2675737 --> 00:36:44,752.2675737
Because that's how you're going to get the most.

569
00:36:46,72.2675737 --> 00:36:50,482.2675737
Relevant most powerful, most resonant information from yourself.

570
00:36:50,902.2675737 --> 00:36:52,162.2675737
Because that's what this is.

571
00:36:52,522.2675737 --> 00:36:56,92.2675737
Our photographs are us teaching ourselves.

572
00:36:56,482.2675737 --> 00:36:57,412.2675737
If we let them.

573
00:37:00,362.2675737 --> 00:37:04,502.2675737
Your photo habit is a cheat code for listening to your instincts.

574
00:37:05,372.2675737 --> 00:37:08,372.2675737
For hearing what you're trying to tell yourself.

575
00:37:09,992.2675737 --> 00:37:11,852.2675737
It's on the tip of your nose.

576
00:37:15,752.2675737 --> 00:37:17,192.2675737
We're on our walk and.

577
00:37:18,122.2675737 --> 00:37:21,722.2675737
The kids are always, of course getting distracted and dilly dallying.

578
00:37:22,472.2675737 --> 00:37:24,872.2675737
And one of the things that they do.

579
00:37:25,592.2675737 --> 00:37:27,452.2675737
So many times on a walk.

580
00:37:27,902.2675737 --> 00:37:28,652.2675737
Can make me cry.

581
00:37:29,522.2675737 --> 00:37:32,392.2675737
Is pick me flowers slash weeds.

582
00:37:33,742.2675737 --> 00:37:40,762.2675737
And, um, Just that little voice.

583
00:37:41,302.2675737 --> 00:37:41,662.2675737
Wait.

584
00:37:42,22.2675737 --> 00:37:43,582.2675737
I got to get mommy a flower.

585
00:37:44,62.2675737 --> 00:37:44,812.2675737
And help water.

586
00:37:44,842.2675737 --> 00:37:47,482.2675737
Production it is getting off the bike.

587
00:37:48,202.2675737 --> 00:37:49,912.2675737
Running to the patch of grass.

588
00:37:50,482.2675737 --> 00:37:55,582.2675737
Picking up the tiniest little weed flowers that just crumble in his rough hands.

589
00:37:55,582.2675737 --> 00:37:56,812.2675737
And then he has to find more.

590
00:37:59,122.2675737 --> 00:38:00,442.2675737
But when that's happening.

591
00:38:02,182.2675737 --> 00:38:04,972.2675737
Here we get mommy a flower.

592
00:38:05,92.2675737 --> 00:38:06,472.2675737
I lift my phone.

593
00:38:07,282.2675737 --> 00:38:10,552.2675737
I Press the shutter, press the shutter, press the shutter.

594
00:38:11,152.2675737 --> 00:38:11,632.2675737
It's like.

595
00:38:13,42.2675737 --> 00:38:13,822.2675737
Oh, my gosh.

596
00:38:13,852.2675737 --> 00:38:14,722.2675737
Look at him.

597
00:38:15,412.2675737 --> 00:38:16,822.2675737
Look at this effort.

598
00:38:17,362.2675737 --> 00:38:22,572.2675737
I everything comes so much more deeply than if I were just sitting there waiting.

599
00:38:24,402.2675737 --> 00:38:27,12.2675737
I'm like, look how he's hunched over.

600
00:38:27,222.2675737 --> 00:38:27,912.2675737
Look at how.

601
00:38:28,482.2675737 --> 00:38:31,572.2675737
He's got a backpack on and he's about to tumble.

602
00:38:31,992.2675737 --> 00:38:41,772.2675737
Look at the innocence and the purity, and then to take the pictures, like as he's walking towards me, Click click, click, click, click, click.

603
00:38:42,12.2675737 --> 00:38:48,522.2675737
So when, until he so close that it doesn't even make sense that I'm taking the picture because he's inside the frame.

604
00:38:55,572.2675737 --> 00:38:57,762.2675737
Being in a moment in that way.

605
00:38:58,992.2675737 --> 00:39:01,182.2675737
Brings you inside of it.

606
00:39:04,602.2675737 --> 00:39:06,192.2675737
You're not around it.

607
00:39:08,822.2675737 --> 00:39:11,12.2675737
It's engaging in it.

608
00:39:12,242.2675737 --> 00:39:13,622.2675737
While it's happening.

609
00:39:16,942.2675737 --> 00:39:23,692.2675737
And there's space for all of it, right? Like you could take one picture of that and be content and you just want to be, and not everyone is.

610
00:39:24,322.2675737 --> 00:39:25,912.2675737
Is as like psychotically.

611
00:39:27,292.2675737 --> 00:39:29,182.2675737
Obsessive about the photo taking.

612
00:39:31,942.2675737 --> 00:39:33,562.2675737
But there's something that happens.

613
00:39:33,562.2675737 --> 00:39:41,422.2675737
Like, what does it psychosomatic, like when you're pressing that button? It's like, you know, you're pressing it because it's so important.

614
00:39:41,782.2675737 --> 00:39:43,792.2675737
And so sweet and so whatever.

615
00:39:43,792.2675737 --> 00:39:45,712.2675737
And so you press, press, press, press, press.

616
00:39:47,92.2675737 --> 00:39:49,522.2675737
I was like, you're finding the pulse of your life.

617
00:39:50,362.2675737 --> 00:39:53,92.2675737
Through the cadence of hitting the shutter button.

618
00:39:56,572.2675737 --> 00:39:58,342.2675737
Uh, this, this, this, this, this.

619
00:40:04,222.2675737 --> 00:40:04,672.2675737
I don't know.

620
00:40:04,672.2675737 --> 00:40:08,552.2675737
I just envision it as like nudging, like nudging yourself awake.

621
00:40:08,552.2675737 --> 00:40:10,562.2675737
It's like, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up, wake up.

622
00:40:10,562.2675737 --> 00:40:10,982.2675737
It's here.

623
00:40:11,72.2675737 --> 00:40:11,582.2675737
It's here.

624
00:40:15,512.2675737 --> 00:40:18,92.2675737
And the beautiful thing about the whole practices.

625
00:40:20,562.2675737 --> 00:40:22,422.2675737
When you're seeing like that.

626
00:40:25,322.2675737 --> 00:40:29,672.2675737
It integrates into your life, into your being deeper.

627
00:40:30,542.2675737 --> 00:40:30,992.2675737
And.

628
00:40:32,102.2675737 --> 00:40:35,772.2675737
You're unavoidably Recalibrating you're knowing.

629
00:40:36,732.2675737 --> 00:40:37,422.2675737
Your.

630
00:40:39,72.2675737 --> 00:40:40,632.2675737
Meaning in life.

631
00:40:44,202.2675737 --> 00:40:47,82.2675737
Your intentionality what's important to you.

632
00:40:51,522.2675737 --> 00:40:55,542.2675737
It keeps you grounded and centered in your central.

633
00:40:55,572.2675737 --> 00:40:58,512.2675737
Uh, core.

634
00:40:58,962.2675737 --> 00:41:01,92.2675737
You're knowing if like this is important.

635
00:41:01,692.2675737 --> 00:41:11,82.2675737
Life fucking crazy, but also right now, nothing else matters, but this, and even when other things are going crazy, this still holds its weight in importance.

636
00:41:11,142.2675737 --> 00:41:12,42.2675737
I feel that.

637
00:41:12,402.2675737 --> 00:41:13,212.2675737
It's in me.

638
00:41:16,962.2675737 --> 00:41:24,522.2675737
And then when you get you stray and you get far away, You go back and you look at your pictures and you listen to the pictures.

639
00:41:26,772.2675737 --> 00:41:29,142.2675737
Listen to what you did, look at what you did.

640
00:41:31,742.2675737 --> 00:41:34,532.2675737
I have an unconditional trust and knowing.

641
00:41:35,132.2675737 --> 00:41:36,932.2675737
That I am present for my life.

642
00:41:38,702.2675737 --> 00:41:41,402.2675737
I am tapped into the heartbeat of my life.

643
00:41:45,282.2675737 --> 00:41:47,952.2675737
I can harness that in an intentional way.

644
00:41:50,232.2675737 --> 00:41:50,832.2675737
I can.

645
00:41:50,832.2675737 --> 00:41:56,562.2675737
Choose to be more active in it and like use this information to do something specific.

646
00:41:57,12.2675737 --> 00:42:00,252.2675737
And go to it for strength and courage and.

647
00:42:01,482.2675737 --> 00:42:03,42.2675737
Reassurance or.

648
00:42:04,182.2675737 --> 00:42:04,782.2675737
I can.

649
00:42:05,52.2675737 --> 00:42:08,802.2675737
Rest in the knowing that I'm unavoidably, recalibrated.

650
00:42:10,332.2675737 --> 00:42:10,782.2675737
Too.

651
00:42:10,782.2675737 --> 00:42:12,522.2675737
What I've witnessed as my truth.

652
00:42:16,782.2675737 --> 00:42:19,152.2675737
You create your memories.

653
00:42:21,652.2675737 --> 00:42:23,182.2675737
It is so easy.

654
00:42:23,452.2675737 --> 00:42:24,892.2675737
To gloss by.

655
00:42:26,332.2675737 --> 00:42:28,642.2675737
Uh, life that it is horrifying.

656
00:42:29,872.2675737 --> 00:42:32,2.2675737
It is so easy.

657
00:42:35,302.2675737 --> 00:42:36,322.2675737
To miss.

658
00:42:38,272.2675737 --> 00:42:41,62.2675737
When you're not giving yourself the time and space.

659
00:42:41,62.2675737 --> 00:42:42,502.2675737
To make meaning.

660
00:42:43,912.2675737 --> 00:42:45,52.2675737
Of what's in front of you.

661
00:42:49,492.2675737 --> 00:43:00,342.2675737
Because at the end of the day, What are we doing? What's it all mean? What's the point? Nothing means anything until we assign the meaning of it.

662
00:43:01,122.2675737 --> 00:43:02,262.2675737
And we assign meaning.

663
00:43:02,262.2675737 --> 00:43:03,582.2675737
Hopefully consciously.

664
00:43:03,642.2675737 --> 00:43:07,152.2675737
And if not consciously, it's unconscious to everything.

665
00:43:07,182.2675737 --> 00:43:08,262.2675737
Well, no, one's immune from this.

666
00:43:09,312.2675737 --> 00:43:10,662.2675737
It's recognizing.

667
00:43:11,352.2675737 --> 00:43:14,22.2675737
Where and what meaning you're assigning.

668
00:43:14,832.2675737 --> 00:43:15,612.2675737
In your life.

669
00:43:19,872.2675737 --> 00:43:22,302.2675737
Meaning makes matter.

670
00:43:23,352.2675737 --> 00:43:25,62.2675737
Meaning makes it matter.

671
00:43:26,772.2675737 --> 00:43:31,512.2675737
If I'm making my photo habit mean that I am.

672
00:43:32,112.2675737 --> 00:43:36,72.2675737
Less present because I'm too concerned with making photos.

673
00:43:37,672.2675737 --> 00:43:38,332.2675737
Then that.

674
00:43:38,332.2675737 --> 00:43:39,382.2675737
Becomes.

675
00:43:39,382.2675737 --> 00:43:41,422.2675737
Uh, constructive energy in my life.

676
00:43:43,552.2675737 --> 00:43:48,412.2675737
And it becomes even more of a thing that I'm contending with because I'm going against my natural instinct.

677
00:43:51,312.2675737 --> 00:43:57,402.2675737
And then anytime I take a photo, I have this like weird subconscious guilt of like, oh, just be there.

678
00:43:57,432.2675737 --> 00:43:58,302.2675737
Be there.

679
00:44:00,402.2675737 --> 00:44:01,682.2675737
You don't need the photo.

680
00:44:02,162.2675737 --> 00:44:03,542.2675737
It's like you write, I don't.

681
00:44:04,52.2675737 --> 00:44:05,312.2675737
I fucking want it.

682
00:44:12,552.2675737 --> 00:44:15,222.2675737
I believe the single most important thing we can do.

683
00:44:15,222.2675737 --> 00:44:17,52.2675737
For being awake in our life.

684
00:44:17,742.2675737 --> 00:44:18,882.2675737
Is to.

685
00:44:18,882.2675737 --> 00:44:24,792.2675737
Protect nourish support her instinct and impulses when it comes to.

686
00:44:26,52.2675737 --> 00:44:27,372.2675737
Taking photos in our life.

687
00:44:32,102.2675737 --> 00:44:35,72.2675737
And if it's not photos for you, it can be writing.

688
00:44:35,72.2675737 --> 00:44:36,902.2675737
It can be whatever it is for you.

689
00:44:37,82.2675737 --> 00:44:38,942.2675737
That creative impulse.

690
00:44:39,812.2675737 --> 00:44:42,272.2675737
Uh, like, uh, we'll want to do this.

691
00:44:42,932.2675737 --> 00:44:43,472.2675737
Do it.

692
00:44:45,932.2675737 --> 00:44:47,282.2675737
Honor your instinct.

693
00:44:49,892.2675737 --> 00:44:53,822.2675737
Because you're trying to tell yourself something, you're trying to experience something.

694
00:44:53,822.2675737 --> 00:44:55,472.2675737
You're recognizing something.

695
00:44:56,432.2675737 --> 00:44:57,482.2675737
It's a sacred.

696
00:44:57,872.2675737 --> 00:44:58,382.2675737
Act.

697
00:44:59,312.2675737 --> 00:45:00,542.2675737
Of acknowledgment.

698
00:45:01,82.2675737 --> 00:45:02,282.2675737
Of reverence.

699
00:45:02,282.2675737 --> 00:45:02,972.2675737
Honoring.

700
00:45:02,972.2675737 --> 00:45:03,842.2675737
The next time.

701
00:45:05,102.2675737 --> 00:45:09,572.2675737
You find yourself in that? Energy of I want to take the picture, but oh, I don't.

702
00:45:09,572.2675737 --> 00:45:11,132.2675737
I also don't want to be burdened.

703
00:45:11,372.2675737 --> 00:45:13,82.2675737
I want to just be here.

704
00:45:14,562.2675737 --> 00:45:16,722.2675737
What would it be like to.

705
00:45:18,222.2675737 --> 00:45:22,32.2675737
Let the camera be the portal to being in it more.

706
00:45:23,262.2675737 --> 00:45:24,582.2675737
To give that to yourself.

707
00:45:24,612.2675737 --> 00:45:25,692.2675737
Let yourself.

708
00:45:25,992.2675737 --> 00:45:28,272.2675737
Really sink into that.