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May 8, 2024
Crippling Intentionality
When do your sacred intentions become too much of a good thing?When does it stop being supportive & expansive and start becoming paralyzing horse blinders?Is your obsession with intention the thing that's actually hindering your ability to see, e...
When do your sacred intentions become too much of a good thing?
When does it stop being supportive & expansive and start becoming paralyzing horse blinders?
Is your obsession with intention the thing that's actually hindering your ability to see, enjoy, & engage in your life? (asking for a friend lol)
SHOW NOTES:
1:1 BREAKTHROUGH VISION SESSION
Sacred Seeing Membership for Creatives
https://www.instagram.com/biancaleamorra/
Awkward Sage Media
Transcript
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You may be on this quest..
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This unquenchable thirst for this Mirage of wholeness.
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And what it might feel like if you finally are able to put your finger on something and have it.
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Stay.
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I can be like, oh, this and not be so transient.
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Like the pictures that fly by.
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That we take.
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I think there might be some.
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Trick going on in our psyche that we feel like if we could just correctly isolate, if we could just.
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Articulate the right intention.
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If we could just figure out one more thing about ourself.
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And undo the mystery that is yourself.
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And we will be able to grasp and hold and squeeze.
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And drink.
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This feeling of homeness of grounded-ness of peace.
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And feel like we're always.
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R.
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Satisfiable degree of present in our lives.
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Even just saying it like jokingly mockingly, like, oh, drooling.
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That sounds so good.
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And.
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It's not.
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Existent.
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Help Me See is a podcast dedicated to the art of seeing.
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It's a space for the restless visionary with an insatiable desire to create the life and work you're meant for.
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My name is Bianca Lea Mora, and I'm a photographic artist, a mother, and a coach who's transformed my fear of loss into power, art, and philosophy.
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One of the scariest quotes I never want to say is, I wish I knew at the time, but I truly believe that we have the innate ability to bring our wise 2020 hindsight to our now.
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You can deeply experience your nostalgia now, while it's actually happening, with no regrets.
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All you have to do is see.
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In this show, we laugh, we cry, we get inspired, we overshare, we have life changing conversations around making meaning, self discovery, and shedding all the BS layers in order to reconnect to our own sacred vision.
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Seeing yourself is an essential key to living powerfully.
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You are the vessel, the lens that filters absolutely everything in your life.
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What are you filtering for? Whether it be conversations with fellow artists and visionaries, or my solo audio journal style introspective ramblings, each episode is meant to feel like an exhale, an unraveling of truth, a moment for you to be able to put your finger on something that you haven't been able to for far too long.
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Come exactly as you are.
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It's perfect.
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Honor your instincts.
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Let's uncover some of the most important things in our lives which all too often can slip out from our view.
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Let's commit to seeing and consciously creating what only you can in your one and only life.
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Let's dive in.
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Hello.
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Hello and welcome to another episode of help me see.
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Oh, I can't believe I'm about to say what I'm about to say.
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I need a break.
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From being.
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Intentional.
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And it's all my fault.
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Oh, my gosh.
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This just came to me.
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I've kind of been humming and hawing.
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I'm like, what do I want to talk about this week? I feel like there's.
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Got a handful of things floating around in this thing.
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Just came out of left field in my brain.
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And I was like, fuck.
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Yeah.
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This kind of trumps it kind of trumps all of.
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The other stuff, because it's all encompassing and it, it it's like the underbelly of all the other things I was thinking about in that.
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What if.
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We're just trying too hard.
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To do good.
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To be.
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Right.
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In the most innocent, pure way.
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But it's tangling in twisting.
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thing.
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I look at my kids and.
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They hold.
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Their intentions and their passions.
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So furiously.
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And also so lately, and they are so good at honoring.
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If something else comes up that they want to do or they change their mind.
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Or they got an idea and they have no problem dropping the original plan, like a hot potato.
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Um, Yeah, this pressure of.
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Being intentional.
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We don't.
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We don't have to try.
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I keep coming back.
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I feel like I'm a broken record on this thing because.
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I keep rediscovering the same shit in every different place.
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I look.
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So.
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I have this amazing client who.
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I'm working with.
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Um, on a one one-on-one capacity now.
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And she said to me, She wanted something, created it specifically for what was going on with her.
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And I was so happy and excited to get into it.
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And.
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She mentioned because she's been in nostalgia now, my membership.
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For a while.
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That's now called sacred, seeing.
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And she mentioned how helpful having just an intention.
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To start the month.
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Was for her.
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Just having that loose thing in the back of your brainstem.
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And being able to lightly hold that and just put that over your lens for everything you come across.
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So you're not.
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Working to do something.
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We're investigate something or uncover.
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It's just something that's brought up to the surface of your awareness so that it can.
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Percolate.
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It can more become more readily available to you.
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And.
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I was reminded at how impactful she said that was this morning.
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I was doing this.
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I don't want this new app.
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Um, it's called.
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Um, a moment of space.
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Absolutely no affiliation.
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Uh, I've only used it a handful of times.
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But I filled out some questions and it gave me a path.
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And, um, The path I, it gave me was around.
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Being with your feelings.
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W ironically.
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'cause I, I infamously struggled with.
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What the F does it mean to feel my feelings.
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And.
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Aye.
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It walks you through this meditation where.
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It has you noticed a feeling like, think about, or think of a memory.
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That you felt.
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You know, good or bad, whatever.
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Now decide on what that feeling is called for you and notice what it felt like in your body, what it looked like.
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Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
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And just notice it.
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Just keep noticing it until.
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All of a sudden you might notice it changes or it dissipates.
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Or blah, blah, blah.
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That's it.
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Then like they, they went on and I was like, wait a minute.
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That's it.
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Like that is it.
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Like just.
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Noticing.
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I've done that my whole goddamn motherfucking life.
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What.
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Why am I complicating this? Why am I.
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What am I asking of my.
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Noticing.
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I think at the end of the day, If you are someone that's listening to this podcast.
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You may be on this quest.
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Four.
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This unquenchable thirst for this Mirage of wholeness.
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And what it might feel like if you finally are able to put your finger on something and have it.
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Stay.
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I can be like, oh, this and not be so transient.
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Like the pictures that fly by.
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That we take.
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And those moments of our lives that we notice.
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And then they're done.
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I think.
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That.
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There might be some.
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Trick going on in our psyche that we feel like if we could just correctly isolate, if we could just.
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Articulate the right intention.
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If we could just figure out one more thing about ourself.
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And undo the mystery that is yourself.
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And we will be able to grasp and hold and squeeze.
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And drink.
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This feeling of homeness of grounded-ness of peace.
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And feel like we're always.
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R.
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Satisfiable degree of present in our lives.
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Even just saying it like jokingly mockingly, like, oh, drooling.
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That sounds so good.
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And.
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It's not.
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Existent.
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The whole point.
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Is that.
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It's all transient changing, changing, changing.
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Why do you take.
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Hundreds of photos in a photo session.
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Why do you take.
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Um, you know, 20, 30 photos of your kids at a time or of a scene in your life.
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When you're just on a walk or whatever.
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Oftentimes, it feels like that one isn't enough.
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Cause it's like, oh, that doesn't quite encompass the whole thing.
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And what about the single or, oh, they keep moving.
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Oh, this is you.
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Oh, this is Q2.
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Well, this is heater.
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That's beautiful.
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That's so frustrating.
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You know, One, whenever I'm doing one of those things, that's like a value, you know, circle your values or list your blah, blah, blah.
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Fun or play is nowhere to be seen on mine.
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I don't have, I don't have time for that.
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He doesn't even sound appealing.
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My version of fun is.
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Being.
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Like seriously having space and being serious.
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Learning and reading and conversating and uncovering and creating.
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And let's play for me and that's okay.
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But I'm like, oh gosh.
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I'm asking too much of it.
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I'm asking too much of the practice.
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It feels like.
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I know.
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To hold it loosely.
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But I'm really, I'm being really fucking serious about holding it loosely and it's canceling out.
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Sorry.
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I still have, uh, some something in my just, I don't know.
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Oh, my gosh.
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Holy shit.
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We so adorable.
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And no bully.
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Effort into.
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Being.
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In integrity with ourselves.
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And our hearts.
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And somewhere along the way.
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We miss it.
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We missed the point.
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I recently sent out a gallery and.
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Uh, client.
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Message faxing something.
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So beautiful she's said she had sobbed.
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And.
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She said specifically, it captures so much love.
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That makes me realize how I sometimes feel like it's actually impossible.
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To tell them and show them how much I loved them, but that's how I feel.
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Uh, about your photos.
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It's like seeing something.
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That you love so much, you feel like there's, there's nothing you can say to quote unquote, do it justice.
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But also.
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What you're looking at.
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Isn't something you.
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Effort at either.
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It's something that came.
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Of you living your life.
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You know that session that she's talking about.
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Nothing was planned.
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We just.
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After round.
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Like we just.
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I spent the day together.
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Nothing planned.
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Everything was so effortless.
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I spent 24 hours with them.
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And in that nothingness.
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Was it, everything.
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Everything is already there.
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So, what does it mean to.
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Admit to yourself.
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That.
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You are so.
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Beautiful and.
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Amazing and worthy and.
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Inspiring and.
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Pure love just by being in existence and not trying to do anything special.
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You just already, are it just already is? It's just there.
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I don't think that we can tolerate that often.
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I think that it's hard to.
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At admit that to ourselves.
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Or we feel like we must be in denial of it.
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For one reason or another for society for our past, for whatever.
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Who are you? If you're not trying to be good.
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Who are you if you're not trying to do good.
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Who are you? If you are not in service to others, who are you? If you are not mothering.
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Or in a relationship or taking care.
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Can you let yourself.
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Put all of it down.
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For a moment.
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Can you close your eyes and remember that you came into this world.
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Perfect.
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What would it feel like.
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If you knew for certain.
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You have everything you need.
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As artists, mothers, friends, service providers.
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You know, When you're.
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Creating something for others, whether it's a life, a childhood.
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A photo session.
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Um, Coaching mentoring, whatever it is.
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It's so important to come from this.
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Morally ethically clear place, right? Two.
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Really.
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Be intentional.
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About.
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How we are serving and who we be in the position of.
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Holding someone else's hand.
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Right.
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But there's a point in which.
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It is crucial to let go.
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Of.
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Your side of it.
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I heard someone once said that, you know, you're, I forget who it was that I heard it from first, but.
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You don't own your kids.
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You're just guiding them through life.
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You're a guide you're supporting them.
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You're keeping them safe right now.
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And.
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They're not yours.
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They're not your property.
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I think about that a lot.
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I think about when.
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I'm coaching someone.
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I feel that energy like bubble up in me of like all the things I want to tell them in.
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All the things that I love the processes.
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I want to take them through in the questions I want to ask them.
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And there's never enough time in BU.
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But the most important thing I can do.
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Is be with them in the moment that they are in.
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In that very.
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Very second.
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Before me before them.
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Because everything else is imaginary.
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Everything else is noise.
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Except what is true and what is truth here? So my.
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Intentions.
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Could be pure and good.
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But if I'm gripping too tightly to this intention of.
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X Y Z.
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I won't allow myself to see what's in front of me.
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Same thing.
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If you're in a photo session, same thing.
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If you have a vision of what you want your day to be like, taking the kids to the aquarium and it.
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I ain't going that way.
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This kind of reminds me of.
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The conversation last week of, um, You know, what have, you could just assume that it's never going to happen for you.
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Whatever this thing is that you're clinging to.
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This vision, this goal.
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I think in some ways, Intentions can be swapped.
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For that conversation.
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Sometimes.
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We confuse.
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Intentions as a goal.
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And they're not always static.
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They're allowed to change.
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You're allowed to change.
328
00:19:00,953.3333333 --> 00:19:02,153.3333333
You're allowed to change your mind.
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You're allowed to change your.
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Vision you're allowed to change.
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Anything about yourself? And your life.
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Go take a look at your photo.
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Scroll.
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Just.
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A couple of last couple of weeks, maybe.
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If you're feeling ambitious, go back a couple of years.
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Just reassess.
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How far.
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Your soul has gotten you.
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How enough it has been.
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How abundantly enough.
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Can you see your life with fresh eyes? You ever notice? Uh, for me, if I am ever.
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In a hotel room.
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Or an Airbnb or something hits all of a sudden, I just have this.
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Urge to take pictures and I see.
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Light differently because it's new because I'm not used to it.
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Because I'm not with it every day.
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I'm away from all my stuff.
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All my stories.
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I can see more clearly.
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Can we do that whilst still being at home? The filters that we base.
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R.
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Experience.
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Of life off of.
355
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And the, that determines what we see and what we do not see in our life.
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His values, beliefs.
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Attitudes memories.
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Decisions language and meta-programs.
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Meta-programs are.
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The way you're organized.
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your strategies on how you live your life and, just kind of like your default mode.
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So all of those things.
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That we carry with us inside of us.
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Are already filtering.
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So much outside of our ability of perception.
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In our lives.
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Now when you add.
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The intention.
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That all of those things.
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Deemed.
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Worthy or important.
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One might be able to see that.
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We can't always hang our hats on our intention.
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So to say like, Our best laid intentions.
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Our well-intentioned and also possibly.
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Limited and also possibly.
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Shutting us off from seeing something even more incredible that we weren't even able to fathom.
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As a possibility to begin with.
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So, how do we hold both? How do we hold? This.
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Super power of going about our lives with intention.
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And yet not use it to paralyze us, not use it to blind us towards.
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The things in life that we cannot even.
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Plan.
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Or guests.
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Might occur.
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00:22:11,4.3310658 --> 00:22:12,264.3310658
There are so much better.
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Than our intentions.
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Would lead us to believe.
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Would lead us to experience.
390
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I think that's what I'll do.
391
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I'll breathe it in.
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Whatever I'm taking too seriously, whatever I'm.
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desiring, whatever I'm intending.
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I'll breathe it in real deep.
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And then.
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Let it out.
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With my exhale.
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Has there been an intention in this season of your life that you feel like.
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You just have breathed in.
400
00:22:47,594.3310658 --> 00:22:51,584.3310658
And you can't breathe in any longer and you also can't hold your breath any longer.
401
00:22:51,674.3310658 --> 00:22:53,564.3310658
So it's time for you to exhale that.
402
00:22:55,774.3310658 --> 00:22:56,554.3310658
Let's do it together.
403
00:22:57,394.3310658 --> 00:22:58,534.3310658
Okay, whatever it is.
404
00:22:59,14.3310658 --> 00:22:59,614.3310658
Let it come to you.
405
00:22:59,614.3310658 --> 00:23:04,384.3310658
What is the thing? That you're like, oh my gosh, this is like so important to me.
406
00:23:04,774.3310658 --> 00:23:07,804.3310658
And it's also possibly, probably is.
407
00:23:08,134.3310658 --> 00:23:10,654.3310658
The thing that's making everything else more difficult.
408
00:23:14,614.3310658 --> 00:23:15,664.3310658
And yes, you're right.
409
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It's so important and it's beautiful.
410
00:23:17,14.3310658 --> 00:23:22,954.3310658
And the best thing you can get and see, even right now, And let it go.
411
00:23:26,14.3310658 --> 00:23:26,944.3310658
Just let it be.
412
00:23:27,304.3310658 --> 00:23:29,674.3310658
Out around you in their particles.
413
00:23:31,864.3310658 --> 00:23:32,614.3310658
Be open.
414
00:23:34,744.3310658 --> 00:23:36,124.3310658
Be open to trusting.
415
00:23:36,694.3310658 --> 00:23:39,4.3310658
Your subconscious be open to trusting life.
416
00:23:39,694.3310658 --> 00:23:40,414.3310658
And.
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No, that you don't have to clean.
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To a.
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Tangible or.
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Well articulated intention in order to live well.
421
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Let's all just exhale.
422
00:23:59,164.3310658 --> 00:24:00,274.3310658
A little bit more.
423
00:24:00,874.3310658 --> 00:24:01,504.3310658
Then.
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We have been.
425
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All right.
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That's what I have for you today.
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00:24:09,34.3310658 --> 00:24:10,84.3310658
Aye.
428
00:24:10,774.3310658 --> 00:24:14,74.3310658
Am about to go get the kiddos ready for.
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They're sports classes.
430
00:24:18,784.3310658 --> 00:24:23,914.3310658
And, um, If this.
431
00:24:23,914.3310658 --> 00:24:25,354.3310658
Felt resonant for you.
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If there's something you want to share.
433
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I feel free to find me on Instagram.
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00:24:30,184.3310658 --> 00:24:32,434.3310658
At Bianca, Leah Maura, L E a.
435
00:24:33,124.3310658 --> 00:24:44,604.3310658
And, uh, if you are interested in having one-on-one conversation around your vision and your goals and your work and your.
436
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Creative practice.
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feel free to reach out.
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I would love to see how I may support you in this.
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Important season.
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They're all important.
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Okey-dokey.
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I will catch you next time.
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This has been an Awkward Sage Production.
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You may be on this quest..
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This unquenchable thirst for this Mirage of wholeness.
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And what it might feel like if you finally are able to put your finger on something and have it.
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Stay.
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I can be like, oh, this and not be so transient.
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Like the pictures that fly by.
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That we take.
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I think there might be some.
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Trick going on in our psyche that we feel like if we could just correctly isolate, if we could just.
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Articulate the right intention.
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If we could just figure out one more thing about ourself.
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And undo the mystery that is yourself.
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And we will be able to grasp and hold and squeeze.
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And drink.
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This feeling of homeness of grounded-ness of peace.
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And feel like we're always.
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R.
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Satisfiable degree of present in our lives.
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Even just saying it like jokingly mockingly, like, oh, drooling.
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That sounds so good.
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And.
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It's not.
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Existent.
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Help Me See is a podcast dedicated to the art of seeing.
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It's a space for the restless visionary with an insatiable desire to create the life and work you're meant for.
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My name is Bianca Lea Mora, and I'm a photographic artist, a mother, and a coach who's transformed my fear of loss into power, art, and philosophy.
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One of the scariest quotes I never want to say is, I wish I knew at the time, but I truly believe that we have the innate ability to bring our wise 2020 hindsight to our now.
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You can deeply experience your nostalgia now, while it's actually happening, with no regrets.
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All you have to do is see.
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In this show, we laugh, we cry, we get inspired, we overshare, we have life changing conversations around making meaning, self discovery, and shedding all the BS layers in order to reconnect to our own sacred vision.
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Seeing yourself is an essential key to living powerfully.
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You are the vessel, the lens that filters absolutely everything in your life.
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What are you filtering for? Whether it be conversations with fellow artists and visionaries, or my solo audio journal style introspective ramblings, each episode is meant to feel like an exhale, an unraveling of truth, a moment for you to be able to put your finger on something that you haven't been able to for far too long.
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Come exactly as you are.
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It's perfect.
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Honor your instincts.
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Let's uncover some of the most important things in our lives which all too often can slip out from our view.
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Let's commit to seeing and consciously creating what only you can in your one and only life.
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Let's dive in.
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Hello.
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Hello and welcome to another episode of help me see.
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Oh, I can't believe I'm about to say what I'm about to say.
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I need a break.
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From being.
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Intentional.
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And it's all my fault.
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Oh, my gosh.
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This just came to me.
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I've kind of been humming and hawing.
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I'm like, what do I want to talk about this week? I feel like there's.
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Got a handful of things floating around in this thing.
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Just came out of left field in my brain.
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And I was like, fuck.
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Yeah.
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This kind of trumps it kind of trumps all of.
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The other stuff, because it's all encompassing and it, it it's like the underbelly of all the other things I was thinking about in that.
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What if.
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We're just trying too hard.
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To do good.
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To be.
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Right.
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In the most innocent, pure way.
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But it's tangling in twisting.
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thing.
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I look at my kids and.
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They hold.
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Their intentions and their passions.
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So furiously.
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And also so lately, and they are so good at honoring.
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If something else comes up that they want to do or they change their mind.
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Or they got an idea and they have no problem dropping the original plan, like a hot potato.
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Um, Yeah, this pressure of.
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Being intentional.
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We don't.
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We don't have to try.
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I keep coming back.
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I feel like I'm a broken record on this thing because.
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I keep rediscovering the same shit in every different place.
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I look.
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So.
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I have this amazing client who.
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I'm working with.
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Um, on a one one-on-one capacity now.
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And she said to me, She wanted something, created it specifically for what was going on with her.
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And I was so happy and excited to get into it.
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And.
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She mentioned because she's been in nostalgia now, my membership.
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For a while.
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That's now called sacred, seeing.
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And she mentioned how helpful having just an intention.
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To start the month.
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Was for her.
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Just having that loose thing in the back of your brainstem.
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And being able to lightly hold that and just put that over your lens for everything you come across.
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So you're not.
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Working to do something.
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We're investigate something or uncover.
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It's just something that's brought up to the surface of your awareness so that it can.
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Percolate.
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It can more become more readily available to you.
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And.
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I was reminded at how impactful she said that was this morning.
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I was doing this.
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I don't want this new app.
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Um, it's called.
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Um, a moment of space.
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Absolutely no affiliation.
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Uh, I've only used it a handful of times.
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But I filled out some questions and it gave me a path.
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And, um, The path I, it gave me was around.
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Being with your feelings.
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W ironically.
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'cause I, I infamously struggled with.
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What the F does it mean to feel my feelings.
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And.
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Aye.
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It walks you through this meditation where.
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It has you noticed a feeling like, think about, or think of a memory.
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That you felt.
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You know, good or bad, whatever.
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Now decide on what that feeling is called for you and notice what it felt like in your body, what it looked like.
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Blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.
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And just notice it.
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Just keep noticing it until.
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All of a sudden you might notice it changes or it dissipates.
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Or blah, blah, blah.
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That's it.
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Then like they, they went on and I was like, wait a minute.
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That's it.
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Like that is it.
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Like just.
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Noticing.
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I've done that my whole goddamn motherfucking life.
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What.
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Why am I complicating this? Why am I.
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What am I asking of my.
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Noticing.
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I think at the end of the day, If you are someone that's listening to this podcast.
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You may be on this quest.
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Four.
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This unquenchable thirst for this Mirage of wholeness.
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And what it might feel like if you finally are able to put your finger on something and have it.
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Stay.
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I can be like, oh, this and not be so transient.
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Like the pictures that fly by.
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That we take.
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And those moments of our lives that we notice.
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And then they're done.
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I think.
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That.
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There might be some.
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Trick going on in our psyche that we feel like if we could just correctly isolate, if we could just.
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Articulate the right intention.
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If we could just figure out one more thing about ourself.
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And undo the mystery that is yourself.
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And we will be able to grasp and hold and squeeze.
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And drink.
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This feeling of homeness of grounded-ness of peace.
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And feel like we're always.
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R.
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Satisfiable degree of present in our lives.
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Even just saying it like jokingly mockingly, like, oh, drooling.
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That sounds so good.
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And.
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It's not.
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Existent.
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The whole point.
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Is that.
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It's all transient changing, changing, changing.
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Why do you take.
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Hundreds of photos in a photo session.
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Why do you take.
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Um, you know, 20, 30 photos of your kids at a time or of a scene in your life.
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When you're just on a walk or whatever.
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Oftentimes, it feels like that one isn't enough.
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Cause it's like, oh, that doesn't quite encompass the whole thing.
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And what about the single or, oh, they keep moving.
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Oh, this is you.
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Oh, this is Q2.
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Well, this is heater.
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That's beautiful.
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That's so frustrating.
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You know, One, whenever I'm doing one of those things, that's like a value, you know, circle your values or list your blah, blah, blah.
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Fun or play is nowhere to be seen on mine.
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I don't have, I don't have time for that.
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He doesn't even sound appealing.
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My version of fun is.
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Being.
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Like seriously having space and being serious.
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Learning and reading and conversating and uncovering and creating.
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And let's play for me and that's okay.
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But I'm like, oh gosh.
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I'm asking too much of it.
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I'm asking too much of the practice.
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It feels like.
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I know.
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To hold it loosely.
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But I'm really, I'm being really fucking serious about holding it loosely and it's canceling out.
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Sorry.
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I still have, uh, some something in my just, I don't know.
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Oh, my gosh.
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Holy shit.
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We so adorable.
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And no bully.
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Effort into.
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Being.
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In integrity with ourselves.
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And our hearts.
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And somewhere along the way.
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We miss it.
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We missed the point.
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I recently sent out a gallery and.
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Uh, client.
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Message faxing something.
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So beautiful she's said she had sobbed.
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And.
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She said specifically, it captures so much love.
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That makes me realize how I sometimes feel like it's actually impossible.
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To tell them and show them how much I loved them, but that's how I feel.
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Uh, about your photos.
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It's like seeing something.
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That you love so much, you feel like there's, there's nothing you can say to quote unquote, do it justice.
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But also.
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What you're looking at.
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Isn't something you.
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Effort at either.
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It's something that came.
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Of you living your life.
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You know that session that she's talking about.
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Nothing was planned.
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We just.
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After round.
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Like we just.
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I spent the day together.
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Nothing planned.
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Everything was so effortless.
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I spent 24 hours with them.
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And in that nothingness.
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Was it, everything.
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Everything is already there.
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So, what does it mean to.
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Admit to yourself.
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That.
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You are so.
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Beautiful and.
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Amazing and worthy and.
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Inspiring and.
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Pure love just by being in existence and not trying to do anything special.
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You just already, are it just already is? It's just there.
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I don't think that we can tolerate that often.
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I think that it's hard to.
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At admit that to ourselves.
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Or we feel like we must be in denial of it.
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For one reason or another for society for our past, for whatever.
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Who are you? If you're not trying to be good.
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Who are you if you're not trying to do good.
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Who are you? If you are not in service to others, who are you? If you are not mothering.
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Or in a relationship or taking care.
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Can you let yourself.
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Put all of it down.
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For a moment.
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Can you close your eyes and remember that you came into this world.
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Perfect.
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What would it feel like.
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If you knew for certain.
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You have everything you need.
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As artists, mothers, friends, service providers.
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You know, When you're.
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Creating something for others, whether it's a life, a childhood.
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A photo session.
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Um, Coaching mentoring, whatever it is.
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It's so important to come from this.
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Morally ethically clear place, right? Two.
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Really.
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Be intentional.
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About.
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How we are serving and who we be in the position of.
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Holding someone else's hand.
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Right.
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But there's a point in which.
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It is crucial to let go.
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Of.
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Your side of it.
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I heard someone once said that, you know, you're, I forget who it was that I heard it from first, but.
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You don't own your kids.
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You're just guiding them through life.
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You're a guide you're supporting them.
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You're keeping them safe right now.
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And.
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They're not yours.
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They're not your property.
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I think about that a lot.
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I think about when.
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I'm coaching someone.
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I feel that energy like bubble up in me of like all the things I want to tell them in.
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All the things that I love the processes.
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I want to take them through in the questions I want to ask them.
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And there's never enough time in BU.
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But the most important thing I can do.
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Is be with them in the moment that they are in.
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In that very.
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Very second.
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Before me before them.
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Because everything else is imaginary.
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Everything else is noise.
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Except what is true and what is truth here? So my.
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Intentions.
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Could be pure and good.
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But if I'm gripping too tightly to this intention of.
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X Y Z.
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I won't allow myself to see what's in front of me.
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Same thing.
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If you're in a photo session, same thing.
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If you have a vision of what you want your day to be like, taking the kids to the aquarium and it.
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I ain't going that way.
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This kind of reminds me of.
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The conversation last week of, um, You know, what have, you could just assume that it's never going to happen for you.
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Whatever this thing is that you're clinging to.
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This vision, this goal.
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I think in some ways, Intentions can be swapped.
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For that conversation.
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Sometimes.
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We confuse.
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Intentions as a goal.
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And they're not always static.
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They're allowed to change.
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You're allowed to change.
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You're allowed to change your mind.
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You're allowed to change your.
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Vision you're allowed to change.
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Anything about yourself? And your life.
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Go take a look at your photo.
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Scroll.
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Just.
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A couple of last couple of weeks, maybe.
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If you're feeling ambitious, go back a couple of years.
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Just reassess.
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How far.
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Your soul has gotten you.
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How enough it has been.
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How abundantly enough.
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Can you see your life with fresh eyes? You ever notice? Uh, for me, if I am ever.
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In a hotel room.
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Or an Airbnb or something hits all of a sudden, I just have this.
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Urge to take pictures and I see.
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Light differently because it's new because I'm not used to it.
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Because I'm not with it every day.
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I'm away from all my stuff.
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All my stories.
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I can see more clearly.
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Can we do that whilst still being at home? The filters that we base.
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R.
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Experience.
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Of life off of.
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And the, that determines what we see and what we do not see in our life.
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His values, beliefs.
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Attitudes memories.
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Decisions language and meta-programs.
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Meta-programs are.
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The way you're organized.
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your strategies on how you live your life and, just kind of like your default mode.
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So all of those things.
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That we carry with us inside of us.
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Are already filtering.
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So much outside of our ability of perception.
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In our lives.
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Now when you add.
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The intention.
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That all of those things.
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Deemed.
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Worthy or important.
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One might be able to see that.
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We can't always hang our hats on our intention.
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So to say like, Our best laid intentions.
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Our well-intentioned and also possibly.
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Limited and also possibly.
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Shutting us off from seeing something even more incredible that we weren't even able to fathom.
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As a possibility to begin with.
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So, how do we hold both? How do we hold? This.
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Super power of going about our lives with intention.
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And yet not use it to paralyze us, not use it to blind us towards.
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The things in life that we cannot even.
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Plan.
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Or guests.
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Might occur.
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There are so much better.
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Than our intentions.
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Would lead us to believe.
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Would lead us to experience.
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I think that's what I'll do.
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I'll breathe it in.
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Whatever I'm taking too seriously, whatever I'm.
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desiring, whatever I'm intending.
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I'll breathe it in real deep.
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And then.
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Let it out.
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With my exhale.
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Has there been an intention in this season of your life that you feel like.
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You just have breathed in.
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And you can't breathe in any longer and you also can't hold your breath any longer.
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So it's time for you to exhale that.
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Let's do it together.
403
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Okay, whatever it is.
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Let it come to you.
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What is the thing? That you're like, oh my gosh, this is like so important to me.
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And it's also possibly, probably is.
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The thing that's making everything else more difficult.
408
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And yes, you're right.
409
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It's so important and it's beautiful.
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And the best thing you can get and see, even right now, And let it go.
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Just let it be.
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Out around you in their particles.
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Be open.
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Be open to trusting.
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Your subconscious be open to trusting life.
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And.
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No, that you don't have to clean.
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To a.
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Tangible or.
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Well articulated intention in order to live well.
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Let's all just exhale.
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A little bit more.
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Then.
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We have been.
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All right.
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That's what I have for you today.
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Aye.
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Am about to go get the kiddos ready for.
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They're sports classes.
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And, um, If this.
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Felt resonant for you.
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If there's something you want to share.
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I feel free to find me on Instagram.
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At Bianca, Leah Maura, L E a.
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And, uh, if you are interested in having one-on-one conversation around your vision and your goals and your work and your.
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Creative practice.
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feel free to reach out.
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I would love to see how I may support you in this.
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Important season.
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They're all important.
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Okey-dokey.
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I will catch you next time.
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